I& #39;ve been wanting to talk about this for a while.

How ADHD has affected my life.

First off ADHD is different for everyone. I& #39;m just talking about how it impacts me.

ADHD is a weeeird thing. Sometimes it& #39;s really awful and confusing. Other times it& #39;s actually kinda awesome.
I didn& #39;t get a full diagnosis until I was 23. By that time I had made it out of college and was working full time at desk job doing UX Design.

Once I got tested the doctor said I was in the bottom 10% for concentration and was surprised that I had made it through college...
without knowing. Tbh so was I lol.

I& #39;ve been on Adderall ever since. Legally using an amphetamine is a whole other topic, but overall I self regulate and it has helpped me a lot.

The surprising thing about ADHD is just how vastly it affect every aspect of your life.
The biggest one is called "Hyperfocus"

My entire life if I have ever been passionate about something it is all I thing about or want to work on.

On the surface it sounds like I have a lot of drive and thats true...
however consider what this really means. I will push off other majorly important tasks in my life if there is something else I& #39;m focused on.

Some of the worst things this has done is made me miss my family& #39;s birthdays, lose friends because I disappear into my new work for long..
periods of time, and even neglect my awareness of my financial situation (luckily I don& #39;t spend a lot of money so I& #39;ve been able to recover from this).

There& #39;s a massive mental cost for these times as well.

Mostly it& #39;s resulted in manic/depressive swings. When I& #39;m working...
I am WORKING. When I& #39;m in between these I feel empty & like I& #39;m not doing enough. I know it& #39;s not true but it& #39;s hard to accept.

Then there& #39;s "Time Blindness"

I have zero awareness of just how long I should expect a project/task to take.

I will constantly take on large tasks..
At the last moment and assume "it may be a bit more work but it& #39;s not THAT bad." Usually I& #39;m very wrong.

It can be a big issue especially if there are other people involved. I& #39;m extremely cautious when asking for help because it& #39;s so hard for me to understand if I& #39;m actually...
Asking way to much or barely anything at all.

"Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria"

This is the mack daddy of negatives with ADHD.

In a nutshell I have a much larger negative bais when people share their feeling about me or something I& #39;ve done.

When I was a designer this was ROUGH
My boss/co-workers would review my work and I would think they were out to get me or put me down so they could ensure that their position of authority was maintained. This is/was wrong, but it& #39;s so subtle it& #39;s almost impossible to pick up on it.

It also shows in friendships...
When someone communicates normally and I instinctively will think I& #39;m being targeted which again is not the case, but just how my brain wants to interpret it.

It& #39;s strained a lot of friendships and makes it hard to understand when I& #39;m reading it wrong or a line is actually...
Crossed.

This one is kind of a mix of things.

I have a really hard time understanding what I truly want out of life/what path I want to take to get it.

This a result of and results in a slew of other issues

Setting goals is a nightmare. Being able to plan ahead is...
almost impossible.

Additionally it results in simple things like when I have a day off I have zero idea what I WANT to do. I always ask myself "what would be fun?" I can almost never produce an answer. Now multiply that times every moment of free time and you see the anxiety..
That is caused.

This also causes commitment issues. When I have trouble knowing what I truly want it& #39;s hard for me to accept commitment with the understanding that I may be very wrong about my decision in the end.

And the last one is simply that I have a short fuse...
ADHD causes you to focus on the present WAY more than normal. This means that when there is a confrontation I can instinctively not keep in mind things like "they& #39;re saying this cause they care and know me" or "this is just a momentary blip and not who they are as a whole"...
Without context like this in a situation of stress, things can get heated real quick with me.

With all of these things it& #39;s taken me almost 30 years to adjust and fine tune myself to account for how my brain WANTS to see things vs how they ACTUALLY are. I& #39;m not perfect at it...
But I& #39;m proud of the work I& #39;ve done to deal with it.

ADHD isn& #39;t the worst things in the world but with so many people over/under diagnosed i felt like sharing would be a good thing for those who might need to see it.

It& #39;s a very quiet thing and affects people in so many...
Problematic ways that they might not even realize.

If you do think that you might have an attention problem PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE get properly tested by a specialist in ADHD. General Practitioners are great but if you& #39;re gonna start taking stimulants to help you NEED full and...
Proper testing.

Idk who needs to hear this but if you are dealing with ADHD or think you might have it, you& #39;re not "broken." You just experience the world differently and thats ok .

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