Sometimes I don& #39;t remember the past due to repression being a good defense mechanism. But sometimes, a memory out of nowhere surfaces and I feel absolutely horrible. Today was one of those days.

Even before I knew the meaning of bullying, I& #39;ve bullied a friend. Since she and I were the same size when we were young, I used to call her "fatty bum boleh" (a name my mom used to call me)

Sure, I didn& #39;t mean no harm, I think. My mom used it as a *joke* (yes I& #39;ve got issues as an adult, thanks mom) and I thought she& #39;d take it the same way.

Well she didn& #39;t. I don& #39;t remember if she was furious or upset over the name calling, but suddenly we weren& #39;t friends anymore.

I wish I knew her now to apologize. I didn& #39;t even realize that I was fat shaming someone and I feel like trash. Idk what I wanted to accomplish by this thread, but it& #39;s never okay to call people names.

As adults we need to be extra careful with the words we say because kids are sponges that absorb EVERYTHING. They probably don& #39;t know the difference between joking and bullying.

And to that girl I gave a horrible nickname to, I& #39;m sorry.