I just found out Yuki (my dog) has a swollen eye and part of his snout is swollen (all on his right side) he also has had itchy feet for around two weeks maybe? My mom was assuming it was allergies so she started giving him benedryl each day (she still is) +

+ He has an appointment with the vet on Monday, but I’m still really scared. I don’t really know much about dogs, the last one I had was when I was 5 and I ended up watching him die. Getting back on track, I never really cared/owned for the dog seeing as I was young +

+ not that I’d remember it anyways. But the point is I don’t know like anything about this and I’m really scared. It’s probably stupid of me to be this worried when we’ll probably find out it was nothing. It’s just I’ve had two bad experience with dogs already +

+ Pharaoh was the one I mentioned before and the other was bagel who died on the day we were adopting him (two days before Christmas actually) That’s why I was honestly hesitant to get another dog, which is probably another stupid thing. I shouldn’t believe that it was my fault +

+ that they died and I probably shouldn’t believe in superstitions either. Now I’m just doing pointless rambling, but I do that a lot when I’m scared or nervous and that was the whole point of this tweet so what was I supposed to expect?

Anyways, I really hope it’s nothing big and that I don’t lose another dog, I’m not even sure my heart can handle it, especially not with everything else that’s happened this year. All I have to do is hope for the best, help out as much as I can, and stay strong for Yuki’s sake

I’m gonna end this thread now and watch some horror movies to cheer myself up. Thanks to anyone who read this <3