I& #39;m terrified of death more than anything and days like this aren& #39;t great for that. don& #39;t think I& #39;ll ever get to grips with how cruel and random and entirely unknowable the concept of not living is, but I know the only way I can live with it is to just live

I find some comfort in this thread from earlier this year that puts it better than I ever could. you can& #39;t live letting it hang over you. you have to be present https://twitter.com/_Zeets/status/1221646125201006593">https://twitter.com/_Zeets/st...

all that said I think in the case of someone like Chadwick, the legacy left behind matters. it doesn& #39;t make his death justifiable or anything but cruel and we shouldn& #39;t live feeling an obligation to leave something so significant behind. but when someone can, it does matter