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Nicole says Kemi messaged her with clips of what Jack and Jackson said. Kemi asked her to educate herself on what happened.
Nicole didn& #39;t watch the clips. #BB22
Nicole didn& #39;t watch the clips. #BB22
It& #39;s important to note that Nicole was all about educating the racists of her season but clearly refused to educate herself. This is why I have beef with people who take the "education" route. At some point it becomes an excuse, a crutch. #BB22
Eric asks why Nicole didn& #39;t watch the clips.
Nicole fights back tears and answers "avoidance. If you avoid it its not true, if I don& #39;t watch it, hate doesn& #39;t exist."
Nicole fights back tears and answers "avoidance. If you avoid it its not true, if I don& #39;t watch it, hate doesn& #39;t exist."
Nicole says if they saw her vocalize love then they& #39;d be more loving.
She says she did start to be more receptive to the truth about them. She acknowledge the group chat that Jessica exposed recently.
She says she did start to be more receptive to the truth about them. She acknowledge the group chat that Jessica exposed recently.
She& #39;s says she wouldn& #39;t have read those screenshots months ago. She feels bad that it& #39;s taken her this long to admit what her season said and did.
Nicole says that they (BB21) should not be supported. She doesn& #39;t believe that they should be allowed to be around until they can show love and growth.
Nicole says she reached out to Kemi and expressed that she deserved better. She says she deserved more as a friend and an ally. #BB22
Nicole reached out to Jack and Michie. She told them she wanted to help them and see them be better people but they are consistently doing things she doesn& #39;t condone and making her look like a fool. #BB22
Nicole says she showed them love and wanted others to see good in them. She says there is good in Jack Matthews and Michie 
https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😑" title="Ausdrucksloses Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Ausdrucksloses Gesicht"> but they keep going back to square one consistently. #BB22
Nicole says she& #39;s scared to make people feel bad and unsupported.
She& #39;s trying to be better. She wants to watch her season and watch the clips that were sent to her and to face things because she& #39;s part of the problem. She& #39;s unfollowed Jack and Michie. #BB22
She& #39;s trying to be better. She wants to watch her season and watch the clips that were sent to her and to face things because she& #39;s part of the problem. She& #39;s unfollowed Jack and Michie. #BB22
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Eric says that Nicole hurt and invalidated the fans and people who endured Jack and Jackson& #39;s behavior.
Nicole agrees and realizes she screwed up. She& #39;s going to be better. #BB22
Nicole agrees and realizes she screwed up. She& #39;s going to be better. #BB22
Eric asks if Nicole now sees why Kemi was so hurt and why she felt like she endured everything all alone.
Nicole expected Kemi& #39;s friendship because Kemi is a good person so she chose to ignore what the house did to her and David, Ovi, so she could be friends with them too.
She let them down and owes Kemi a lot. She doesn& #39;t understand herself.
She let them down and owes Kemi a lot. She doesn& #39;t understand herself.
Eric says that they were all in "protect Nicole from all social media" mode.
Nicole says that playing BB again brought up everything she tried to ignore last season.
Nicole says that playing BB again brought up everything she tried to ignore last season.
Nicole says that after winning AFP and the season ending, she got into a mode where she would ignore things that weren& #39;t okay. People didn& #39;t mean to say mean things, people are good.
Eric says "you& #39;re 25". #BB22
Eric says "you& #39;re 25". #BB22
Nicole says she should know better. Ignorance is not an excuse.
Eric says a lot of her views of the world are made up from the fact that she lives with her family still. She wakes up and her family is there and dinner is made for her.
Eric says a lot of her views of the world are made up from the fact that she lives with her family still. She wakes up and her family is there and dinner is made for her.
Nicole says that Jack didn& #39;t have family support because his HOH letter was from a friend. She says Michie opened up about his family. "It doesn& #39;t give a right but it gives a reason for why they tick the way they tick."
She kept telling herself that they meant well.
She kept telling herself that they meant well.
Nicole explains that she wants to grow. She feels the fans ultimately helped her see that she is the problem.
Correct: fan reaction*
Eric is floored that Nicole unfollowed Jack and Michie but he says she keeps saying they& #39;re good people.
Nicole says she just wants them to be good people and starts to cry.
Eric is floored that Nicole unfollowed Jack and Michie but he says she keeps saying they& #39;re good people.
Nicole says she just wants them to be good people and starts to cry.
She& #39;s realizing that they are good to her but not good to others. She wants them to be loving to everyone or she won& #39;t come back around.
Nicole says she had to go back on BB to see how she was the problem since she avoided so much.
Eric and Nicole say she was supporting the wrong people (Jack and Michie). She doesn& #39;t want to lead them to a better path. "It& #39;s not my cross to bear."
They circle back to Kemi sending her the videos. Nicole said she saw the hate and death threats for the Jack& #39;s and refused to contribute to that so she told Kemi no to watching the clips.
Eric says that if BB22 taught Nicole that she can& #39;t support hateful people who haven& #39;t changed and can& #39;t ignore things then that& #39;s a good thing.
Nicole agrees and says she also ignored how bad last season messed with her mental health.
Nicole agrees and says she also ignored how bad last season messed with her mental health.
Eric hopes people continue to help Nicole go through this journey. He says he& #39;s frustrated by what& #39;s already being said this season, people have directed hate at Nicole but haven& #39;t clarified why.
No, we& #39;ve been clear.
No, we& #39;ve been clear.
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Eric asks that people help Nicole, hold her accountable but also be forgiving.
Nicole says people will get caught up in how long it took her to connect the dots but at least she& #39;s connecting them now.
Nicole says people will get caught up in how long it took her to connect the dots but at least she& #39;s connecting them now.
She& #39;s open to be educated, to talk to people, to learn, and to be better.
Eric says Kemi as well as slme fans have tried to reach out to her many times so Nicole has to be open to the idea that it might be too late for some people.https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="👀" title="Augen" aria-label="Emoji: Augen">
Eric says Kemi as well as slme fans have tried to reach out to her many times so Nicole has to be open to the idea that it might be too late for some people.
Nicole accepts that it may be too late. She wants it to be understood that she did avoid it but it wasn& #39;t with bad intentions.
She& #39;s not asking to go skipping hand and hand with Kemi but will be a friend and ally from afar.
She& #39;s not asking to go skipping hand and hand with Kemi but will be a friend and ally from afar.
Nicole says all that matters is that she has arrived to these realizations and that she will keep growing.
Eric says that before he would make excuses for having contact with certain people until Cody from BB19. He refuses to interview him. So he no longer feels that way and encourages Nicole to do the same.
Eric says "BTW to anyone watching this, admitting that you have done wrong, admitting you want to change at an point is a good thing. Never feel stupid or embarrassed."
He tells Nicole it makes her strong to do that.
He tells Nicole it makes her strong to do that.
Nicole is going to watch her season and Eric is going to show Nicole all the controversial clips that didn& #39;t make the show. Nicole wants to see them.
Topics summarized:
- Nicole had another emotional reaction after this season ended because of her realizations
- More topics that Nicole has ignored in the last year
- Nicole will be addressing her mental health for both seasons
- Nicole had another emotional reaction after this season ended because of her realizations
- More topics that Nicole has ignored in the last year
- Nicole will be addressing her mental health for both seasons
Eric asks the fans to stop calling his dad who is in the hospital...
