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I saw a guy came to our hostel for water with his Mangay (Matka) in his hand.
A beautiful guy, Green eyes, white cap, slightly big belly.
There was something wrong with his walk
My friends started talking to him in a very funny way with stupid postures....
I saw a guy came to our hostel for water with his Mangay (Matka) in his hand.
A beautiful guy, Green eyes, white cap, slightly big belly.
There was something wrong with his walk
My friends started talking to him in a very funny way with stupid postures....
Their tone changed with a sarcastic smile on their faces.
They all gathered around him.
I was unable to process that sudden act.
I was new kid in the hostel.
My Niazi friend whispered in my ear “Rora, da hijra day” ( this guy is Transgender) they live in the neighborhood........
They all gathered around him.
I was unable to process that sudden act.
I was new kid in the hostel.
My Niazi friend whispered in my ear “Rora, da hijra day” ( this guy is Transgender) they live in the neighborhood........
of our hostel”.
That was my first encounter with a transgender (Slang= HIjra-badag-khazrang-3rd party). I was 16.
After few months my friends told me that there is a great MAYLAS (traditional singing and dance night-Da Hijragano maylas) in our hostel neighborhood..............
That was my first encounter with a transgender (Slang= HIjra-badag-khazrang-3rd party). I was 16.
After few months my friends told me that there is a great MAYLAS (traditional singing and dance night-Da Hijragano maylas) in our hostel neighborhood..............
We can only see them from our hostel balcony.
We were not allowed to go there. Anyways later that night,
we managed to open the big gate of balcony.
They were extremely talented to my wonder.
Pretty voices. Beautiful poetry, extremely good folk singing. They were dancing but.....
We were not allowed to go there. Anyways later that night,
we managed to open the big gate of balcony.
They were extremely talented to my wonder.
Pretty voices. Beautiful poetry, extremely good folk singing. They were dancing but.....
I didn’t see them because it was dark.
We sat there for few hours & enjoyed their music.
Once we were playing football & my cousin kicked ball to their home, he went there to pick the ball.
They (hijragan) invited him for tea, he denied. Later he told me that there was.........
We sat there for few hours & enjoyed their music.
Once we were playing football & my cousin kicked ball to their home, he went there to pick the ball.
They (hijragan) invited him for tea, he denied. Later he told me that there was.........
some smell in their house like rotten eggs or some dead person.
My cousin was also 16.
Few months later I saw my hostel-mates were throwing some money from the balcony to the neighborhood & they all were laughing playing songs with their Nokia cell phones. I joined them.........
My cousin was also 16.
Few months later I saw my hostel-mates were throwing some money from the balcony to the neighborhood & they all were laughing playing songs with their Nokia cell phones. I joined them.........
We were throwing money (10-20-50 pkr) from balcony and they were dancing continuously.
It was summer, and they were dancing without shoes on the hot rough cement floor, & were continuously asking for money.
I also threw some money & enjoyed their dance.
They all were my age....
It was summer, and they were dancing without shoes on the hot rough cement floor, & were continuously asking for money.
I also threw some money & enjoyed their dance.
They all were my age....
or may be a year-two older.
Later that day, we came down to mess for lunch.
I didn’t eat anything.
I was also unable to do my dinner. The next day, I didn’t eat anything at all again.
Whenever I wanted to eat, I got a flashback of their indecent dance without shoes in that......
Later that day, we came down to mess for lunch.
I didn’t eat anything.
I was also unable to do my dinner. The next day, I didn’t eat anything at all again.
Whenever I wanted to eat, I got a flashback of their indecent dance without shoes in that......
hot weather with dirty feet & all of a sudden I would lost my appetite. This thing was on repeat mode, for days. & I was unable to eat.
I begged God to undo that memory.
I tried not to think about them but I was helpless. Time passed, I graduated, did job in Lahore & Sialkot....
I begged God to undo that memory.
I tried not to think about them but I was helpless. Time passed, I graduated, did job in Lahore & Sialkot....
for two years.
I always tried to avoid them whenever I saw them.
& then I got scholarship to Europe.
Time passed, I forgot about everything.
Almost 2 years I added two Trans-activists on Facebook. The next day I got a message from one of them (which is in Europe now)...........
I always tried to avoid them whenever I saw them.
& then I got scholarship to Europe.
Time passed, I forgot about everything.
Almost 2 years I added two Trans-activists on Facebook. The next day I got a message from one of them (which is in Europe now)...........
“DO you know me?
Or can you recall where we met?
“No, I don’t know you, we have mutual Facebook friends that’s why I added you”(I said)
But we went to same school
(she replied)
I am sorry, you are mistaken. We didn’t
NO, we went to same school,
I transformed(she replied)
Or can you recall where we met?
“No, I don’t know you, we have mutual Facebook friends that’s why I added you”(I said)
But we went to same school
(she replied)
I am sorry, you are mistaken. We didn’t
NO, we went to same school,
I transformed(she replied)
What??
What do you mean you transformed?
Ok. What is your name?
I asked with a big heavy heart.
Do you remember someone by the name XYZABCD….
That is my dead name. (She replied)
I went to her Facebook profile again & then I carefully looked at her pictures. OH MY GOD.......
What do you mean you transformed?
Ok. What is your name?
I asked with a big heavy heart.
Do you remember someone by the name XYZABCD….
That is my dead name. (She replied)
I went to her Facebook profile again & then I carefully looked at her pictures. OH MY GOD.......
I remember you.
OH my God. YES. I do remember you.
I shouted little loudly that I disturbed two guys studying next to me.
I am so sorry, I was very rude to you in 8th grade.
It suddenly flashed back “A skinny guy in tight blue jeans with dyed yellow hair. I was laughing.......
OH my God. YES. I do remember you.
I shouted little loudly that I disturbed two guys studying next to me.
I am so sorry, I was very rude to you in 8th grade.
It suddenly flashed back “A skinny guy in tight blue jeans with dyed yellow hair. I was laughing.......
at him continuously, mocking him because of his dress & walk
Me & My stupid Gang were passing comments & he was ignoring, not even looking at us,
He looked Ashamed, confused, Broken & helpless.
I am so sorry. I was a kid. A very rude kid. A very badtameza. i was not a nice.....
Me & My stupid Gang were passing comments & he was ignoring, not even looking at us,
He looked Ashamed, confused, Broken & helpless.
I am so sorry. I was a kid. A very rude kid. A very badtameza. i was not a nice.....
person. (I texted my kaliwal which I found after a decade)
No, NO. I remember, You were a brilliant student, if I were you, I would do the same.
I was struggling with my identity & didn’t knew what to wear & what to do. I was confused. It’s ok. (she replied very nicely)......
No, NO. I remember, You were a brilliant student, if I were you, I would do the same.
I was struggling with my identity & didn’t knew what to wear & what to do. I was confused. It’s ok. (she replied very nicely)......
So how did you end up here in Europe?
Did your parents helped you?
Do you wana share your transformation story?
How can I help you, in any way?
Did you finish your study?
Are you happy?
How did you survive with your identity in Pak?
Was it hard for a person like you to........
Did your parents helped you?
Do you wana share your transformation story?
How can I help you, in any way?
Did you finish your study?
Are you happy?
How did you survive with your identity in Pak?
Was it hard for a person like you to........
confess in front of your family?
How did it feel when you tried female dress for the first time?
How is your friends, life, and family?
When did you left them?
Do you miss them?
Do they call?
Do you remember them?
I was having thousand questions in my mind, and I knew.......
How did it feel when you tried female dress for the first time?
How is your friends, life, and family?
When did you left them?
Do you miss them?
Do they call?
Do you remember them?
I was having thousand questions in my mind, and I knew.......
answer to all of them will be more Tragic & Sad.
I stopped questioning her.
Maybe I don't want to face certain harsh realities of my society.
Maybe I am self-fish & I don’t want to bother about things which will probably never affect me directly.
Maybe I don’t want to get sad.
I stopped questioning her.
Maybe I don't want to face certain harsh realities of my society.
Maybe I am self-fish & I don’t want to bother about things which will probably never affect me directly.
Maybe I don’t want to get sad.
Maybe I will stop eating again for days.
Maybe let it be, who cares.
Yeah.
who gives a flying fuck, enjoy the ride folks.
Maybe let it be, who cares.
Yeah.
who gives a flying fuck, enjoy the ride folks.
