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talking about what happened these past years really makes you think about how fucked up it was
and all these years i pretended like it was water under the bridge but it obviously wasn't because these things are the same things that keep me up at night.
and its not even guilt tho its just me going through these moments and being like "i hated that. that was so messed up. why did they treat me like that. why did i just let it happen."
but it wasn't all bad i had some great moments it's just,,, i feel like there were more cons than pros, mainly talking about the years before last year rn. and it just sucks
i was made fun of for my looks, cast aside, blamed, framed, forgotten and ive always been scared that it'll happen again, not to mention all the things I couldn't control that controlled what i can do where can I go and what happens with what/who
but then there are people who actually laughed at my jokes, called me beautiful and understood why i was unable to do stuff and i'm glad I always had someone to rant to.
I really hope these next couple of years are way better even if it means skipping halloween for the um what is it like 5th? 5th time i think? Maybe 4th? I don't really know and by the looks of things rn i have worse things to worry about
this thread is supposed to be a little rant kinda to myself, just to get stuff off my chest. if you read this entire thread uh good job i love u
sorry if this seems like its for attention i like to rant here bc i only have 10 followers and im pretty sure most of them don't even read my tweets tbh
