My body physically will not let me mourn after countless times I’ve heard of and watched the deaths of members in my community this year and immediately had to attend work or school after. Im normalized to the voices around me everyday that call me n***** and justify the deaths

of my community members. I’m living in a nightmare, all the names and faces are piled in my head like a normality and I can’t seem to shed a tear, it’s a sharp pain in my chest now, cant seem to fear death like I used to. Visits to the hospital, trauma and injustice has been too

common. So much that I want to say but the words in this thread will not be enough to conceptualize the hurt and pain. The black community is so tired of our dehumanization, tolerating ignorance and facing injustices, racism and intersectional struggles. My sister literally

passed out today and is in the hospital... Im having trouble sleeping while others in my community are having trouble breathing, having trouble just trying to keep it all together. Emotionally fatigued and heartbroken is a constant and this shouldn’t be a normality.

*insert names of dead black PEOPLE that have become trending hashtags*