Idk man maybe when im in a better frame of mind ill talk more on this but god damn. . . . Ive never been one to "stan" celebs so passonately like others but Chadwick was definitely among the few i had the most reverence for.

Looking around my room i notice i have the most black panther icons up on the walls of my room. I was never super vocal about it but Chadwick and his work really gave me an small sense of hope in the creative industry than i openly gave him credit for-

Especially in a time where my drive for creativity and my initial goals have been *thee* lowest (now). Chadwick accomplished what i wanted to create in my own work, especially through the BP franchise and not only was his acting phenominal but his personality outside of his work-

Still shone as a beacon of light in a way. Chadwick was an example of Black Intelligence, Black Excellence, Black Creativity, through his charisma and overwhelming drive to create content that represented *us.*

Im gonna take a break bc this is really fucking me up in multiple ways than one but this hit is really hurting me on a personal level as a black creator.

Edit: Im going to sleep soon but before i go, when i say "He gave me a small sense of hope" I dont mean to discredit him and what hes done because it has has a huge impact on the creative industry as well as my own work-

This thread is more of a personal vemt sort of but in terms of creativity i havent been in a good spot. Ive felt insanely demoralized between all the shit and antiblackness in the art community, in addition to my own shortcomings with my own art; finding work for-