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If I do end up deciding to end my life tonight (I AM BEGGING YOU DO NOT CALL THE COPS, THEY ARE ABUSIVE), thanks to everyone for making life bearable.
I have some things to think about in the meantime, but please, don’t get anyone from the outside in on this. I don’t need cops.
I have some things to think about in the meantime, but please, don’t get anyone from the outside in on this. I don’t need cops.
I’m gonna reply to this tweet on some notes as to why I feel the way I do just so I can save myself some time explaining this to everybody, so just read this thread.
•I experienced police brutality in 2018 when I got baker acted, and I’ve been experiencing tremendous survivors guilt because I was only spared because of the color of my skin.
It just doesn’t seem fair that I got to survive and they didn’t.
It just doesn’t seem fair that I got to survive and they didn’t.
•I’ve also been receiving harassment from these ‘Blue Lives Matter’ people telling me that I deserved to get abused and even deserved to die, so just hearing that narrative pounded into my head is kinda making that guilt feel even worse.
•Trauma from receiving years of harassment because of the way I look and because of my mental issues, as well as trauma from other instances that I’d prefer not to get into.
I have to mull over whether I can live with these things or not, but sometimes it’s just hard knowing that not a lot of people in my life support me.
But thank you for having my bsck sports twitter.
But thank you for having my bsck sports twitter.
