tw // ptsd & panic attacks

i don’t often like sharing a lot about my personal life but i kind of want to say something about this topic :(

when i was younger my mom and my stepdad would fight and scream at each other in front of my brother and i. and me being me protecting my mom i would get in between it and it would cause him to get in my face and push me around.

ever since then when my mom (and her current boyfriend) have an argument i always break down into tears and i begin to shake. and so that happened just tonight (about two hours ago). he got in my face when i was defending my mom over something. and he got in her face and yelled.

my moms boyfriend is a heavy drunk alcoholic who doesn’t have any self control or feelings for others. i’m not bashing him but i’m trying to say alcohol makes him a different person. but besides that i have really really bad episodes of panic attacks with this.

idk why i wanted to tweet this thread. but i thought i’d share about this topic because this is hard to talk about for me :(