Who the hell signed me up for this incarnation? I laugh at people trying to be different for attention. Truth is when you're so far removed from what's considered normal its just lonely as hell a lot of the time.

As a kid they tested me at 169iq and i remember reading school textbooks thinking of better ways to teach the children the material than the authors lol. Then abductions and an accelerated awakening path of hell thru my teens, and constant organic portal problems as an adult.

If god or your higher spirit wants you to grow and be humble and strong you will be put through your paces as they say. I honestly cringe at IQ talk but may as well point it out so i don't look too crazy. My mind thinks of so many possibilities at once...

so marijuana and music is my lifeline calming me down and keeping me grounded, that's my medicine... Its hard to take society seriously a lot of the time. My family feels like foreign aliens to me, my whole life.

But some people I meet feel more family than my biological family, probably similar soul groups, old souls kinds of people always inspire me and uplift me and remind me I'm not alone.

The Matrix wants you to feel weak and alone.

But you are never alone, you are a beautiful shining spirit of light and purity and your soul family is always cheering you on behind the scenes. Just remember that as you try not to get eaten by zombies and their collective insane nonsense.