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I say this as an optimist/realist, but I truly believe that this year has been one of the worst years I’ve put up with in recent memory. I should wait until December to make this statement, but with everything bad going on, I might as well come out and say it out of the gate.
At first it started out fine for me personally with me wanting to change my appearance because I wanted to get into cosplay this year. And I was even wanting to step outside my home to overcome my social anxiety. They were my New Years Resolutions after all.
Yeah we had a few tragedies here and there at the beginning, and I really feel bad about those, but that didn’t stop me from moving on with my life and wanting to better myself as a person. The cake around late February to March when the pandemic happened.
All of us were locked in our homes and had nothing but the food and items we bought from stores. Which I’m thankful are still around btw. At first it was nothing for me since I’ve always stayed at home on a daily basis. But then everything went to crap outside.
People being idiots is all you need to know. And partially the reason why we’re still in this to this day. Which sucks because this was also the year I wanted to work too. But then I heard from most of my friends who are still essential say that it sucks too.
At that point, I’m better off working at home. But even then, I haven’t been as motivated to draw this year. Which is really bad for me as well since I wanted to draw more this year. I think at that point, the pessimism was starting to creep up on me.
But I still held whatever hope I have for the rest of the year. But because the pandemic was still going, every con event eventually closed. Even TMG, which is a convention I’ve been going for 3-4 years now. And was when I was gonna prepare for cosplaying too.
And despite the amount of people, I wanted to open myself up more and actually communicate with them and potentially make friends outside of my personal group from Discord. Instead I bought some games through mail to fill in the gap, and just talked to my Discord buddies instead.
My family was supposed to move into a much bigger and better place in a secluded area with as much land as we can afford too. It could’ve been a hassle sure, but I was looking forward to whatever the new house was since I’ve been to it too.
But 1. The house was bought by someone else, and 2. Even if we want to move, now we can’t since whatever supervisor my family hired screwed them over and now we can’t even move for the next 6 months until we at least pay them somehow.
At this point, I was getting to the boiling point. Easily up there with the last few years of my school life. But I have three things that makes me happy. Art, my Discord friends, and Video Games. Friends of mine should know that I play Magia Record a lot.
I could go on, but for the sake of this thread since gone on long enough as is, I’ll save my experiences for another thread. Instead, let’s jump to the moment my heart was broken when I heard that the English servers were shutting down next month.
I felt devastated since friends of mine know how much I love Madoka Magica. And I was starving for new content since 2013. And Magia Record just so happened to fill the gap for me. This franchise is practically my second life.
So to see the English servers shutting down next month felt like a part of my life is going away. Needless to say, I’ve finally lost it. This year has taken away what I’ve had and wanted to do for years. And to me, I’m gonna say that this year has been horrible for me.
And I haven’t even brought up the political stuff in between. But let’s not and say we did. For now, tl;dr, at this point, I’m just waiting until this year is over and for everything to go back to normal so I don’t have to suffer any more.
*sigh* I’m sorry for ranting like this.
*sigh* I’m sorry for ranting like this.
