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Uhh.... yeah. There's something I'd like to talk about, really.
Mostly about gradual decrement of self confidence and motivation.
Mostly about gradual decrement of self confidence and motivation.
I had a conversation with my big brother yesterday. Note that he's unaware of my art and social media account.
Him: "You should try to promote yourself on instagram more! There are many audience for art on that place!" *give example*
Me, wanting to explain but didn't reply: ...
Him: "You should try to promote yourself on instagram more! There are many audience for art on that place!" *give example*
Me, wanting to explain but didn't reply: ...
It was actually my first place to publish my own arts, when I was still doing crappy sketches years ago.
I kept posting as I feel I was getting better, and already tried to use some hashtag to reach out some fandom like pokemon and of course, beastars.
I kept posting as I feel I was getting better, and already tried to use some hashtag to reach out some fandom like pokemon and of course, beastars.
Yet I could only reach a little audiences there. It was then I joined twitter and finally able to reach some understanding audiences here. Really grateful for you all, really.
Then why I was reluctant to continue doing stuff in instagram?
Not until last year, I just realized that something was wrong happening there: hashtags are flooded by unrelated stuffs which made original contents drowned by them, and of course: repost accounts.
Not until last year, I just realized that something was wrong happening there: hashtags are flooded by unrelated stuffs which made original contents drowned by them, and of course: repost accounts.
At first I was quite indifferent, but until recently that I saw most of beastars fanart I knew getting reposted there. And there are also mine, which I already posted by myself, getting reposted again by huge-following reposters.
It is... pretty demotivating to see the thing I've worked hard to create needs to be posted by someone else, then that other person gains more recognition more than I am. Quite a bitter reality, it is.
Am I too fixated about getting much more virtual "likes"? Maybe I don't post frequently enough that I wasn't picked by the algorithm? Or perhaps my overall artworks aren't attractive enough?
Perhaps those are all correct. Maybe I haven't tried enough and should get over it.
Perhaps those are all correct. Maybe I haven't tried enough and should get over it.
I... I don't know what to say anymore, really. It's just kinda sad for me and I'd like to shout out about my sadness. No need to call out the reposters, either; I just wanted to be heard and that's all.
I'd like to explain this to my big brother too, but I don't trust him enough to let him see my artwork. He isn't good when it comes to understanding my own situation, either; Thus my silence at that time.
And now, I'm wondering if I should keep the insta account or not.
And now, I'm wondering if I should keep the insta account or not.
If you really read the whole thread, thank you for reading my thoughts for once.
I'll be deleting the thread after a day or two.
I'll be deleting the thread after a day or two.
