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Uhh.... yeah. There& #39;s something I& #39;d like to talk about, really.
Mostly about gradual decrement of self confidence and motivation.
Mostly about gradual decrement of self confidence and motivation.
I had a conversation with my big brother yesterday. Note that he& #39;s unaware of my art and social media account.
Him: "You should try to promote yourself on instagram more! There are many audience for art on that place!" *give example*
Me, wanting to explain but didn& #39;t reply: ...
Him: "You should try to promote yourself on instagram more! There are many audience for art on that place!" *give example*
Me, wanting to explain but didn& #39;t reply: ...
It was actually my first place to publish my own arts, when I was still doing crappy sketches years ago.
I kept posting as I feel I was getting better, and already tried to use some hashtag to reach out some fandom like pokemon and of course, beastars.
I kept posting as I feel I was getting better, and already tried to use some hashtag to reach out some fandom like pokemon and of course, beastars.
Yet I could only reach a little audiences there. It was then I joined twitter and finally able to reach some understanding audiences here. Really grateful for you all, really.
Then why I was reluctant to continue doing stuff in instagram?
Not until last year, I just realized that something was wrong happening there: hashtags are flooded by unrelated stuffs which made original contents drowned by them, and of course: repost accounts.
Not until last year, I just realized that something was wrong happening there: hashtags are flooded by unrelated stuffs which made original contents drowned by them, and of course: repost accounts.
At first I was quite indifferent, but until recently that I saw most of beastars fanart I knew getting reposted there. And there are also mine, which I already posted by myself, getting reposted again by huge-following reposters.
It is... pretty demotivating to see the thing I& #39;ve worked hard to create needs to be posted by someone else, then that other person gains more recognition more than I am. Quite a bitter reality, it is.
Am I too fixated about getting much more virtual "likes"? Maybe I don& #39;t post frequently enough that I wasn& #39;t picked by the algorithm? Or perhaps my overall artworks aren& #39;t attractive enough?
Perhaps those are all correct. Maybe I haven& #39;t tried enough and should get over it.
Perhaps those are all correct. Maybe I haven& #39;t tried enough and should get over it.
I... I don& #39;t know what to say anymore, really. It& #39;s just kinda sad for me and I& #39;d like to shout out about my sadness. No need to call out the reposters, either; I just wanted to be heard and that& #39;s all.
I& #39;d like to explain this to my big brother too, but I don& #39;t trust him enough to let him see my artwork. He isn& #39;t good when it comes to understanding my own situation, either; Thus my silence at that time.
And now, I& #39;m wondering if I should keep the insta account or not.
And now, I& #39;m wondering if I should keep the insta account or not.
If you really read the whole thread, thank you for reading my thoughts for once.
I& #39;ll be deleting the thread after a day or two.
I& #39;ll be deleting the thread after a day or two.
