September is coming which means:
-Yay I turn 29
-Yay we get a puppy
-And then 3rd anniversary of my dad passing away.

i'm suddenly having a very....rough night

like loss is So Fucking Weird bc like, you'll be fine most of the time and then something just...hits weird and you're just crying like it happened yesterday and just it fucking sucks. like i joke about my dad SO MUCH and make jokes about him being gone and just all this stuff

like my sister and i mess with his urn CONSTANTLY to make mom laugh (she honestly thinks it's funny don't worry we're not traumatizing our mom) and all this stuff and then sometimes its like This Isn't Funny At All time to Fucking Cry For An Hour