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god my grandfather is a really fucked up person. it’s really really not normal to view the world the way he does. he really needs like... help. and has for a long time. It is reassuring in some weird way to remind myself of that but I’m not sure how. What am I even talking about
Like he falls into all the categories you think. No one falls into? Like things you think “no one feels that way anymore” or “yeah but people aren’t actually like that” yeah he is
he truly believes... well I’ll put it this way. Black people would believe me if I gave specific racist things this man thinks and says. Most white people would be shocked as hell
It’s literally that level y’all and it’s like that with everything. The sexism. The lgbtphobia. That stupid shit NO ONE ACTUALLY BELIEVES. HE DOES.
I don’t know what my point is he’s just such. An upsetting person. And every time I remember anything about him I think I’m literally never going to be able to be in the same room as that man again. Never have a conversation with him again. Just because he’s like... Bad
He’s a terrifying person he’s everything you fear an old white southern cis man is like he’s... afraid of everything Fox News tells him to be afraid of lol
and his brain is so screwed up his paranoia is like. Traumatizing for everyone in his life. he would literally just talk all the time about what he would do if *insert racist slur of your choice* broke in and tried to r*pe and kill me and my grandmother.
That’s what he would always go to. Like I remember he was talking one time about why women shouldn’t be in the military or something, and he used that (who would you rather have protecting you? Me or a woman??) but he went to THAT SCENARIO ALL THE TIME JUST IN RANDOM WAYS
like that’s FUCKED he’s Literally the reason I hate cis men like congrats granddaddy you are the man who ruined men for me I know you’re proud
tbf just about every Cis Man I met after him confirmed it but whatever
tbf just about every Cis Man I met after him confirmed it but whatever
Idk like every time I get upset about some way my grandma is or something she did or said or thinks or whatever I just remember that she has spent more than 50 years being psychologically terrorized by this man and I’m like. Well.
Like they Love each other and I really do believe that my grandfather doesn’t Want to hurt the people he loves and most of the time does not intend to but also. Fifty years.
And even now some part of me is wanting to apologize and make excuses and be like “but I still love him and I still appreciate all he did for me” and like okay great yes the man saved our life. He did. Probably multiple times. But he’s still... BAD...
You wouldn’t believe how many therapy appointments I’ve had that are literally just like this twitter thread lol this man lives in my head absolutely rent free. I’m paying Him.
and as we know all landlords are bastards.
someone in here is scared of this thread like worried about what will happen if they’re stalking our twitter and find this but it’s like. Nothing. Nothing will happen. What can he do to me.
Granddaddy if you are reading this please know that the good things you have done do not excuse the bad things you have done and continue to do and it’s okay for me to feel weird and complicated ways about you as a person. Also please talk to someone about your PTSD.
Also my fiancé’s greatest ambition is to break your hand with a handshake and you definitely deserve that and I support them entirely
