THREAD ABOUT MY STORY

how my family tried to ruin my future:

!!!! TW s:
homophobia, toxic family, mental illness, psychological abuse, manipulation

Dear Souls, I’ve been told to share my story, so here we go: my name’s Alessia, I’m 19yo and I live in Italy.
I wouldn’t be here sharing so much about myself if I didn’t think this was necessary.

Even tho I’ve always had a troubled life, I’ve always tried to survive on my own

and keep fighting: I grew up with some health issues, both physically and mentally, but i’ve always pushed through.
I even had to drop out of high school after being inpatient and outpatient for half a year.
My family is really toxic and keeps getting worse: my parents are

divorced, but that’s not the actual problem (unless we talk about how my mother blames it on me from time to time).
The thing is, I’ve never had a good relationship with my dad, but the one with my mother only got so toxic after she started dating this man, to the point where she

left me all alone at home (not a city so it’s difficult to leave the house for me) for an entire summer without any food, hot water, gas, and literally invaded by big flies everywhere.
She also stopped taking me to the doctor and buying me my meds.
Not gonna share the details on

why I hate my mother’s partner, but just know he did something unforgivable to me and my mom even tried manipulating me into thinking tit never happened, but I do have witnesses.
That’s the point: my family has always manipulated me to the point of making ME doubting of MYSELF.

Literal brainwash.
I’ve always been treated as a slave: had to give them my only money (or they stole it anyways) and got nothing back. Not even the decency of taking me to the doctor and such.

But it gets worse: my grandparents kicked me out THREE times as an act of homophobia

I had to spend 500€ last month to flee from Sicily with my girlfriend and little brother, because my grandma threatened us, tried to hit us and insulted us until we had to leave while she yelled to never come back.

Now our house in Liguria, instead, is seized(?) and we have to

leave in September; so, my grandpa wanted to give my mom one of his own places, until he kicked me out again because I went there with my girlfriend to start cleaning the place before the actual moving day.
So, now, I have no idea of where i’ll stay in Sep and I’m running out of

money.

I’m not the type of girl who only asks but does nothing: I had a job for 3 months only and was able to manage my money for a whole year ‘cause I knew I was gonna have to use them to escape from my own family (Sicily, for example), but I almost run out of it and wouldn’t

last long enough to pay for a flat; I’m trying to find another job, but it’s not so easy without a driving license; I would get a license, but, of course, I have a rare eyesight condition that doctors don’t know how to cure... it wouldn’t be illegal of me to get one anyways, but

I’m too afraid of hurting other people.

I’m honestly terrified. I’m scared I’ll get worse mentally and go back to the hospital (it was traumatic for me).
I’m scared I’ll be homeless.
I’m scared I have no future for me.

I’m not necessarily tweeting this to ask for money; as I

said, I’m a woman who wants to work and have her independence, but unfortunately I don’t have much to offer.

In case you wanted to know more about me: i love learning languages and new skills, I’ve been volunteering (first aid) since I was 14, I’ve been an active participant in

the BLM movement helping raise about 700$ with friends in 3 days, I’m not afraid of trying any kind of job and I’m a quick learner; I’m the type of woman who gives everything when she has nothing; the type of woman who tried for years to solve family problems, when it took them

2 seconds to ruin my entire future; the type of woman forced to psychological abuse everyday.

I really hope this could reach many people as a desperate attempt of creating a new future for both my s/o and I.

No matter what happens, I wanna thank you all for taking the time to read this.
Blessed be.

This is us.
SPEAK OUR STORY.

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