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guys hyperfixations can be a nightmare sometimes like for everyone they are different in some way but at least for me they fluctuate and get more intense or less intense throughout the week. when they are real intense it affects me GREATLY, like (continued in thread)
past few days my toontown fixation got rly intense and I was on from like 10 or 11 pm to 6 am. like my fixation fucks with my sleep schedule and even when it’s not as intense as that it’s ALWAYS on my mind and I can’t get it out. it’s hard for me to think of times where+
where I’m not thinking abt it bc I think of it when I go to bed, I dream about it, it’s the first thing I think of when I wake up, and I think abt it throughout the day and it’s all out of my hands it’s completely uncontrollable. if I could control these thoughts do you think+
+I would be fixated on toontown and not soemtjing more cool and easy to talk abt like undertale? it’s not even a bad thing to like and I feel bad about myself bc it is a game for little kids I played when I was six years old! i am self conscious to tell ppl about it or+
mention it bc I feel like I’m childish or dumb. I remmeber when I thought of my story I tried to hide it from my cousin for a long time bc I was embarassed. imagine being so uncontrollably interested in something it all u think abt all day and+
and it’s swirling in ur brain every moment and u cant even talk about it with other ppl cuz ur embarassed. imagine how u feel trapped and restrained inside ur brain? imagine how it feel for nd people who get fixated on something that isn’t just embarassing but problematic
they literally CANT talk abt it bc ppl will think they can control their fixation when it is impossible. you can’t just stay silent abt ur fixation either, it’s constantly in ur brain and u cant just not mention something like that. I wouldn’t get fixated on+
most of the things I do if I could control it. I see lot of ppl rn getting mad at nd ppl for fixating on problematic things (the sad part is a lot of the time it’s other nd ppl geting mad at them which makes no sense to me) and like it just feels so hypocritical cuz like+
everyone I follow very much wants to destigmatize mental illness or neurodivergency but when mi or nd ppl do “undesireable” things like fixating on bad things or having a meltdown bc of sensory overload or trauma ppl will do call out on them +
and I think it’s very hypocritical to act like that and claim to wanna destigmatize the effects of mental illness and neurodivergency, like u literally are traumatizing nd and mi ppl (mostly children or young adults too) for things they can’t control
sry this been in my head all day I don’t like to get into discourse but I know how fixations feel & how intense and uncontrollable they are and I get very passionate abt these things. I wanna educate ppl on my experience with fixations If anyone doesn’t already know much abt them
believe me if I could control my hyperfixes I wouldn’t be fixated on something embarassing like toontown, and I highly doubt anyone wants to be fixated on media they know is problematic. as far as I know everyone experiences fixations a lil differently so be understanding pls
I wrote this after waking up from nap even tho it been in my head all day so sry if it worded bad LOL
i remmeber for a while I would get up at lik 3-6 in the morning so I could play toontown until the afternoon(1-4 pm)...like bro LOL people don’t play a goo goo ga ga baby game like that and make an elaborate novel length fanfiction out of it if they could control it.
also in this thread I don’t want ppl to think I hate anyone involved in this type of discourse I just want to give people more info about how hyperfixes feel bc I understand how ppl can b upset at ppl with problematic hyperfixations which is why I wanted to talk abt it
