I’m someone who’s learned to be extremely cautious in what I say publicly. I try to be efficient and intentional with my words so I’ll say again that I’m tired.

I’ve felt the full spectrum of emotion throughout the past 5 months. I’ve literally experienced the best day of my life, but I’ve also seen some of my worst. I’ve been hopeful & helpless. I’ve been elated, but I’ve also been extremely depressed.

All in all this is heavy, living in America is heavy. One thing that hasn’t been lost on me is my pride in our people. The resilience, the passion, the power & the fight. Our country is in disarray.

Black people are being killed by officers of the law at a disproportionate rate. Undercover officials are illegally detaining protesters. There are children being taken from their families, placed in captivity, and somehow lost. And there has been essentially nothing done.

Breonna Taylor is a household name, we’ve made sure of it. There still has been nothing done. A man was shot in the back 7 times by officers. I’m unaware of the details of the story and I don’t care. Black people are murdered on camera and it is being broadcast nationwide.

This has become our new normal. This is America in her red, white, and blue glory. This is the country that was built with the blood of black and brown people. The country that has stood and continues to stand on the backs of those same people.

I’m sick of polarizing politics. I’m sick of red and blue. I’m tired of pandering and dogwhistle politics. I’m sick of people crying about wearing a damn mask that may save your Granny’s life. I’ve got asthma, you’ll be fine.

I’m sick of you protecting your self interests. I’m sick of some of you being comfortable in your silence. I’m sick of allowing you to be comfortable.

I’m still trying to find my place in all of this. I want to be efficient. I want to be effective. And I want to bring forth change. I appreciate disruption. I appreciate discourse. And I pray I’m able to figure it out.

Also, COACHES... open your mouthes. For real this time. You’ve probably taken a pay cut & if they furlough you, it was gonna happen anyway.

These same guys that you’d “let date your daughters,” the guys that keep the lights on, the living rooms you went to sit in... those guys live this daily. Some of you have real influence at the local and state levels, use it. Parents & players, hold em accountable.