its crazy how ive been gone for a week and ive honestly received more love leaving ca and being in nyc than i have been at home

no diss to my friends/family/community but the fact that i can actively say that and make that observation means something to me at least

back home i was soo used to fighting for crumbs and and struggling that it made me jaded asf asking for help because i thought (and still do think) that i have to do it all myself

that is not to say that i wasnt loved back home but it was different and id like to think i knew and they knew too