a feel like the more i date the more i realise that i’m probably somewhere on the asexual spectrum,, like the only time i actually really wanted and enjoyed sex was w/ an ex who i loved and had a deep bond w/, everyone else i kinda feel like i do it just to pls them idk

i’ve went thru phases of havin mad sex n sleepin around cos i wanted to see what the fuss was abt but i really don’t get it. i also really want to just be close w someone physically w/o sex 24/7 but is that even asexual anymore idk labels are well confusing

also i feel like i give in n just give men sex cos in return i get hugs n cuddles after n that’s the part i actually want,, is that bad. anyway sex therapy rants over