before i start, i am not tweeting this because im being called out, i've been working on it since last night and all day today because its the right thing to do, and i wanted to word it the right way. i also haven't been home much today which is why i'm doing this now.

there's no excuse for what i did, and i know how horrible it feels to be invalidated or misgendered, so i do understand the effect of my words even though most people may not think i do.

i never intended any harm with what i said, both of the times i misgendered/invalidated kya and kaia were genuine mistakes that i now know and understand and will never make again.

i've apologized to both kya and kaia personally, but i know an apology will never be enough, nothing will. theres nothing i can do to make up for this, but i hope this thread helps you guys understand i hate myself for it just as much as you all do.

^ and when i say that i'm not trying to get you to feel bad for me, i really really just want you all to understand that. as someone who is genderfluid, im learning i need to take pronouns way more seriously, because i do understand how it feels.

i am genuinely so sorry. i know you all my not believe that, but i am, and i hope kya and kaia do. it was never my intention to hurt anyone, especially because i know for most people including myself -

twitter is supposed to be a place where you can feel comfortable with your pronouns and sexuality especially if you can't irl, and i took that away from you. again, i really cant explain how horrible i feel about this

after i tweet this, im gonna log off because i need to hold myself accountable for what i did, and knowing i did that i won't stay here knowing i'm making people feel uncomfortable with me around. im not gonna deactivate because i want you all to see this

i know this was long and i hope at least some people thought it deserved the read. i'm going to be more careful and learn from my mistakes because it is a very serious issue. i don't expect to be forgiven, but from the bottom of my heart, i am genuinely sorry