Today is an important day for mehttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="💛" title="Gelbes Herz" aria-label="Emoji: Gelbes Herz"> A year ago today, I took these pictures and posted them to IG sending everyone positive vibes. That night, I landed myself in the hospital. The situation I was in, forced me to open up to my loved ones about how suicidal and depressed I was.

You never truly know what someone is going through. They can be smiling on the outside and hurting on the inside and you’d never know. I was working 3 jobs while trying to pursue music and everything just felt heavy. I was drained. I couldn’t hide what I was feeling anymore.

The morning after being at the hospital, my family and my man got together to surround me with love and support. They reassured me that I was loved no matter what. My sister works for an Asian Pacific Islander program so she had resources for Pacific Islander counseling.

She made sure I was mentally ready before she helped me make my appt. My mom even volunteered herself to go to counseling just to encourage mehttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🥺" title="Pleading face" aria-label="Emoji: Pleading face">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="💘" title="Herz mit Pfeil" aria-label="Emoji: Herz mit Pfeil"> plus it was free lol. It’s painful to think I had to let my family know under those circumstances.

I struggled with the feeling of being a burden or brushing it off so I wouldn’t add to their own issues. But, the truth is you’re not a burden! And I wasn’t burden. It is so important to open up to someone you trust or a mental health professional rather than keep it inside!

Since then I’ve gotten help and went to therapy. I started to fall in love with myself again. I started my YouTube channel, started TikTok (btw: they just sent me a notification last week that I’m eligible to get paid to make TikTokshttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🥺" title="Pleading face" aria-label="Emoji: Pleading face">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🙏🏽" title="Folded hands (mittlerer Hautton)" aria-label="Emoji: Folded hands (mittlerer Hautton)">) and I’m bouta get back in the studio https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🤩" title="Vom Star geblendet" aria-label="Emoji: Vom Star geblendet">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="✨" title="Funken" aria-label="Emoji: Funken">

It’s so crazy how much can change in a year. I’m grateful to be alive https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🥺" title="Pleading face" aria-label="Emoji: Pleading face"> I still struggle some days but, I’m no where near where I used to be. I find strength in sharing my story knowing that it can possibly help someone and remind them that they’re not alonehttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🙏🏽" title="Folded hands (mittlerer Hautton)" aria-label="Emoji: Folded hands (mittlerer Hautton)">

REMEMBER YOU ARE LOVED AND YOU ARE BEYOND WORTHY!!!!!!! We need you here https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="💕" title="Zwei Herzen" aria-label="Emoji: Zwei Herzen">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="💕" title="Zwei Herzen" aria-label="Emoji: Zwei Herzen">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="💕" title="Zwei Herzen" aria-label="Emoji: Zwei Herzen">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="💕" title="Zwei Herzen" aria-label="Emoji: Zwei Herzen">