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EXPOSING MY TOXIC AND ABUSIVE BROTHER; a thread because it& #39;s time i speak up on this.
TW // bullying , physical abuse , verbal abuse , emotional abuse , suicidal thoughts , mention of shattered glass , anxiety , sexualization , violence , eating , ed mentions , death mentions
TW // bullying , physical abuse , verbal abuse , emotional abuse , suicidal thoughts , mention of shattered glass , anxiety , sexualization , violence , eating , ed mentions , death mentions
so i& #39;d like to start this thread by saying that english is not my first language, so there might be some typos, please understand. i& #39;m gonna list some of the things that he did to me from the age of 3 to the age of 12. nine years.
1.he would slap me, punch me, throw things at me for no reason. afterwards, when my mom would see me cry, he& #39;d say that it was my fault and that i hit him first, and my mom would always stay on his side. i would never hit him. i was too scared of him.
2.while we were playing in the living room, he picked me up and threw me against the door made of glass that separated the living room from the kitchen. i hit the glass with my head and the door shattered. he didn& #39;t even bother to give me ice. i had to go to my grandma& #39;s house-
on my own to tell her what happened. i was seven.
3.a few years ago i started questioning about my sexuality, and the only person in my family to know it was my cousin. one day my cousin outed me to my brother and at first he seemed ok with it. a few days after we went to the beach together and i was hugging my best friend but
when he saw us he threatened me saying that he would burn me alive at the pride of that year.
4.all his classmates and schoolmates know me as "the big tiddie" because of him, he gave me that name. the way they still look at me or try to flirt with and sexualize me is disgusting.
5.singing has always been one of my favourite things ever. when i started taking lessons in an academy and i had to study at home, he would always come into the room and start saying how bad i am at it, that i can& #39;t sing, i should quit the academy. now, i quitted the academy-
and i& #39;m scared of performing in front of my family and friends because i& #39;m afraid that they will say bad things to me.
6.when i was younger i was a lil bit overweight and he (along with my grandma) would alway tell me how fat and ugly i was, he humiliated me in front of my family, he would make fun of me for the way i eated and looked at the time. i thought i could make him shut up if i lost-
weight. i fell into a really bad eating habit. i would only eat 200/300 cals a day and exercise for hours for almost 5 months straight. when i lost almost 20 kg he started making fun of me because i didn& #39;t wanna eat. he would always say "come onnn you always eat like a whale and
now you& #39;re scared of food?"
7.we used to always stay at my grandmas house, since our parents were always working. whenever he used to break something he would always say to my grandparents that it was my fault. he did that all the time so at a certain point i started hiding from my family under the table-
all the time because they didn& #39;t believe in what i said and they wouldn& #39;t even look for me or ask me where i was or why i was crying. i was scared of what they would think about me. i think that& #39;s where my anxiety started.
8.he would invent fake games just to end up hitting me with things and throw things at me: from the mattress to shoes and remote controls.
10.this one time he was drunk/ high and he was really really angry that night. he entered the room and he started playing a talking to his friends on his phone. at a certain point he started shouting at me that i HAD to go away from MY room when i was just tryna sleep. since-
i didn& #39;t want to, cuz u know, that& #39;s my room, he took me from the wrist and he started pulling me to get me out of the bed. at first i was tryna stay strong so the only thing that moved was the bed. it arrived in the middle of the room, then he pushed me on the ground. when i
told him i was going to call the police and denounce him he started laughing and said "you& #39;re not gonna do that, i& #39;m your brother and no one is gonna care about u"
