Tfw you realize your perpetual motivation stems from your parents being all "you gotta be ready for the rapture at any second" as a child and feeling WAYS about it but unable to freely express that I wanted to live a full life... So I just do ALL THE THINGS "while I can" to cope

It's impossible for me to ever relax bc for 18 years I was told the rapture will come before I get to live into old age so if I ever wanted to do *anything* big with my life it always has to be now.

And that is why perpetual burnout has been the story of my life

THANKS, PARENTS