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"17" is an album by XXXTENTACION released on 25th August 2017. This album has aided me in a way, I never thought it would.
#3YearsOf17
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I made a thread of what it means to me.
#3YearsOf17
If you have time please read
I made a thread of what it means to me.
I came across X in 2015ish and I'd like songs of his that used to go hard. I used to listen to other songs of his but I used to prefer XXXTENTACION over xxxtentacion.
I was 17 when this album dropped
One thing that I always struggled with is control. I hated if things weren't in
I was 17 when this album dropped
One thing that I always struggled with is control. I hated if things weren't in
Control. Be it my emotions, be it my actions, be it my thoughts or words, I wanted control. Not being in control freaked me out. Not going to lie, I pretty much had everything under control till something happened and I lost it all.
I was in depression and I wasn't doing well. I wanted to end things so many times but I was pussy to do it. When I became 17 and after some events, I started to lose my grades and stuff like that. I felt that I was letting myself down, which I was tbh but I was being hard on me.
2017 and 2018 are the shittiest years I have been through. I lost a lot of friends, I was indecisive about some things that led to a lot of shit. But one thing is for sure that, this album helped me through some of the hardest times of my life.
In Explanation : Jah says,
"Here is my pain and thoughts put into words
I put my all into this
In the hopes that it will help cure
Or at least numb your depression"
Trust me never did I thought it would help me numb it. I listen to this track just for the last two lines.
"Here is my pain and thoughts put into words
I put my all into this
In the hopes that it will help cure
Or at least numb your depression"
Trust me never did I thought it would help me numb it. I listen to this track just for the last two lines.
Jocelyn Flores:
I've lost many friends and relatives. I never talked about suicide with anyone but with these people going away, it affected me pretty bad. Plus,this track itself is named after one who went in the same manner. This reminds me of them all but now...also of X
I've lost many friends and relatives. I never talked about suicide with anyone but with these people going away, it affected me pretty bad. Plus,this track itself is named after one who went in the same manner. This reminds me of them all but now...also of X
Depression & Obsession:
Depression& Obsession really don't mix well lol. And when there's anxeity, it gets worse. Like in the song, I was obsessed with someone and some things that I wanted by hook or crook. It ended pretty bad for me lol....
Depression& Obsession really don't mix well lol. And when there's anxeity, it gets worse. Like in the song, I was obsessed with someone and some things that I wanted by hook or crook. It ended pretty bad for me lol....
EDITN:
I used to just put this on repeat and doze off in the dark.
These were the days when I was doing my schooling away from my house. I was alone, with all the fucked up thoughts thinking I wasn't doing enough. These nights were very hard and I related w the lyrics.
I used to just put this on repeat and doze off in the dark.
These were the days when I was doing my schooling away from my house. I was alone, with all the fucked up thoughts thinking I wasn't doing enough. These nights were very hard and I related w the lyrics.
Revenge: Again, a song dedicated to Jocelyn.
I like his vocals here sm. U can feel the emotions at the end when he says -in the grave I'll rot.
In the first lines he talks abt forgiving himself in correlation with his past and I felt that for myself.
Ofc, the lyrics is heartfelt
I like his vocals here sm. U can feel the emotions at the end when he says -in the grave I'll rot.
In the first lines he talks abt forgiving himself in correlation with his past and I felt that for myself.
Ofc, the lyrics is heartfelt
Save Me:
Man. This song is so fucking sincere. The emotions. The pain and especially the CALL FOR HELP. Mind is such complicated and complex space. The fact that it puts you through unimaginable thoughts. The voices in your head.
This song defines it all.
Man. This song is so fucking sincere. The emotions. The pain and especially the CALL FOR HELP. Mind is such complicated and complex space. The fact that it puts you through unimaginable thoughts. The voices in your head.
This song defines it all.
Dead Inside (Interlude):
I relate to this song because of the obvious reasons.
Man that was some fucked up shit. U give your heart to someone and they just break it & use u and cheat on u
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Again, his vocals are soothing in here. The visible pain in the voice makes it relatable
I relate to this song because of the obvious reasons.
Man that was some fucked up shit. U give your heart to someone and they just break it & use u and cheat on u
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Again, his vocals are soothing in here. The visible pain in the voice makes it relatable
Fuck Love ( ft.Trippieredd):
Again, the part where X sings marks for me that this person whom I like has ruined stuff for me putting me through hell and trauma just like gun fire and causing riots inside my head.
Again, the part where X sings marks for me that this person whom I like has ruined stuff for me putting me through hell and trauma just like gun fire and causing riots inside my head.
Carry On:
The song talks for itself.
I've been misled, misused and paid the price even though I didn't do no wrong. That situation when you know you're innocent but you've been played with and you gotta move on and carry on coz the world won't move for you. You're on your own.
The song talks for itself.
I've been misled, misused and paid the price even though I didn't do no wrong. That situation when you know you're innocent but you've been played with and you gotta move on and carry on coz the world won't move for you. You're on your own.
Orlando: Ever been through a time where everything & everyone is fucked up? You find yourself and your actions worthless.I always was a studious kid lol. I liked studying & I topped classes and I thought I have my shit in life sorted out but when my school life was ending I felt
that I no longer had a goal and things weren't adding up for me. I just wanted this fucking thing to end. I wanted control and I didn't have it.
Orlando always makes me revisit my memories and I appreciate it coz I been through those times and I'm still here :)
Orlando always makes me revisit my memories and I appreciate it coz I been through those times and I'm still here :)
Ayala (Outro):
Jah was talking about how he felt about Geneva.I also found myself in the same place.
I fell in love for the first time and I had to fall out of it. That shit hurt. Never wanna be there again.
The vocals of this song hut different. I find it melodic.
Jah was talking about how he felt about Geneva.I also found myself in the same place.
I fell in love for the first time and I had to fall out of it. That shit hurt. Never wanna be there again.
The vocals of this song hut different. I find it melodic.
For me ? and 17 mean almost the same thing. I relate to them time to time. Whenever I listen to 17 as a whole, all my new memories resonate with the songs and automatically sort themselves in the tracks.
I love this album and the man who made it.
I love this album and the man who made it.
I miss him a lot. To be honest I have accepted that death comes to all. But the way he left will always haunt me and make me sad for he didn't deserve any of that :(. I'll always try to resonate with his beliefs and values.
I hope he knows that he reached millions of lives.
I hope he knows that he reached millions of lives.
This man has taught me that it's okay to lose control. It's okay to fuck up shit. It's okay to cry and it's okay to over think. I never told stuff to people and kept stuff to myself but this man being a idk how miles away from me, spoke to me.
-x-
If you read all this, ily
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If you read all this, ily
