A Mental health thread:

I've been slacking because of some sort of mental block for more than a whole month now. Not getting anything done and if getting anything done feeling completely drained and too over-worked even for tasks that are breezy for people my age/IQ

My condition of not physically being able to perform tasks is (from my conscious thought) a result of not being able to perform well in recent important exams. Thus, I speculate what I am experiencing is a mix of fear of faliure and low self-esteem.

I would say I am simply in a bad mental space and not label this with an actual disorder as I haven't been able to get a professional help which my friend and I both agree I need. Anyway, I haven't gotten shit done and it is interfering with important stuff in my life now.

So yesterday, my friend and I decided to get a hold on my situation till we can have access to professional help. What we are trying is an 'enforcement technique' () keeping in mind my personal traits/characters.

I'm largely a pushover and would do anything to please everyone. So what my friend does is that she calls me every 60 minutes and I summarize everything I did for the hour to her.

It's been going on since 8 in the morning and our conversations have ranged from bro it's been 30 mins and I only got two definitions done to DAMN I AM SO GETTING THIS CHAPTER DONE TODAY.

It's not like I didn't waste time. I did, but it definitely felt better to tell my friend that I got a whole topic done instead of telling her that I have been playing subway surfers for the past 20 minutes. Now, that shit is motivation.

What I am doing here is simply sharing a technique to get shit done that has helped me (I have studied for five hours today which is more progress than compared to my whole month) and also saying that you can get this roti

Please don't be discouraged when struggling with a mentally tough place. Get help if it is getting too much, I am going to do it too And tbh I would have wasted today too if I hadn't actively called my friend last night.

She is my actual driving force today. It's like when you see a rock fall, it's because gravity pulled it and not because it pushed the person holding the rock. Find your gravity like I did in my friend and do everything you want to do in this beautiful life.

This does not mean you need to beat yourself up on days you can't seem to find the gravity to pull you. It's okay and you can do it I hope this thread reaches someone who really needs it.

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#MentalHealthMatters

I'll go study now as she will call me at 4 and I better tell her I got ordinary law done instead of telling her that I was tweeting