The number of times I use the backspace key >>>>>> One mol

chemistry twitter will understand this better

idk why I have this "one mol" concept in my mind right now. I wasn't good in chemistry tbh.

Maybe CS nahi lena chahiye tha.

Wow watch me rethink all my life decisions

I wonder what would life be like if I chose commerce

Or maybe something more creative like music or designing.

But what about culinary school? I actually thought of dropping out of college to join a culinary school. But the rush to be financially independent and get out of this house stopped me.

Maybe if there was a little push from any external human. But we decide our own destiny? Idk. Sometimes I think what would happen if I actually could do what I want.

But what if I was a boy? Then my dad would have supported me for everything, right? Idk. I can't understand my father. He is a complicated human.

So many questions! Hmm. And what if I would have actually died in that near death experience accident at the age of 5? What would be the situation of this house and my siblings and specially my mother?

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And what if I actually died last year when I attempted pfff. This is just tiring. This life. The longing for love. The urge to find love wherever I can, to fill the void, to compensate the lack of love of all these past years.

Anyway it really doesn't matter I guess. Life has it's own way. We move. But -

What if I don't want to move anymore? I should be given a choice right? That I want this miserable, disturbing, painful life or a peaceful death? Right?

Idk about anyone else but I would choose peaceful death!

The irony of this thread tho. I didn't backspace anything this time.