// self-harm, more than may be expected from the first tweet

Also @mienwhile& #39;s latest fic has me imagining LXC deliberately not fully healing a scar from his time on the run with A-Yao--A-Yao who has scars the way a cultivator shouldn& #39;t, the way Zewu-Jun who overflows with

cultivation power definitely doesn& #39;t need to; but LXC makes sure it remains, for memory, for marking his body for JGY, for the permanent mark of a time he was vulnerable and A-Yao saved him.

--and then later on, in seclusion. Pulling open the wound. Maybe he lets it heal shut and then opens it again; maybe he keeps it always just open, bleeding faintly, washing the bandages himself every morning.

(Because A-Yao hurt him and this is a reminder of that, because he

killed A-Yao and he deserves some kind of punishment for it and who else will provide, because this way he makes sure there is a reminder of A-Yao in the world, because he is lost and confused and in the dark and at least it is something.)