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i don& #39;t know why i& #39;m talking about this right now but i& #39;d like to know if someone else had the same thing. and perhaps it& #39;ll free me from it eh who knows.
When I was about 8 - 10 years old i& #39;ve been sexually abused. So here& #39;s a short thread.
i don& #39;t know why i& #39;m talking about this right now but i& #39;d like to know if someone else had the same thing. and perhaps it& #39;ll free me from it eh who knows.
When I was about 8 - 10 years old i& #39;ve been sexually abused. So here& #39;s a short thread.
I& #39;ve been abused by a relative, several times. thankfully i& #39;ve never been raped. At the time, I didn& #39;t talk about it to anyone, I felt ashamed, dirty, disgusting, you know like most victims (+relative part). A bit later I told someone I still trust more than anything to this day.
I think the reason I told them was because they had gone through the same thing and told me about it, and suddenly you just feel less alone. Apart from them, I didn& #39;t speak about it for years.
And I actually forgot it.
I forgot it until Years later, something triggered me,
And I actually forgot it.
I forgot it until Years later, something triggered me,
and reminded me of it. It came a bit as shock of course but I managed to push the bad memories back, they just pop in my brain from time to time, mainly when something triggers it.
I& #39;m 21 now and I& #39;m seeing a psychologist (due to chronic anxiety). Now this is the part I want to-
I& #39;m 21 now and I& #39;m seeing a psychologist (due to chronic anxiety). Now this is the part I want to-
talk about. One time, she asked me something about my childhood, and i couldn& #39;t answer because i couldn& #39;t remember. So she asked me something else and i couldn& #39;t answer again, and again, and again..... I realised that I had forgotten probably about 85 to 90% of my childhood.
It took me some time to process that my brain actually "erased" a part of my life because of traumatic events (mainly sexual abuse, but not only) and I want to know if the same thing happened to someone here, first because i would feel less alone in this and bc i have questions.
so if anyone reacted the same way i did and would be ok to talk about it, hit the dms pls.
this thread isn& #39;t only about that though, i wanted to spit it out so my brain can& #39;t act like i should keep that a secret.
It& #39;s only when i wrote the word "victims" in this thread-
this thread isn& #39;t only about that though, i wanted to spit it out so my brain can& #39;t act like i should keep that a secret.
It& #39;s only when i wrote the word "victims" in this thread-
-that i realised that i was one, for over 10 years never realised i was trying to minimise it.
The reason I can& #39;t say if I was 8, 9 or 10 is because my brain literally tried to erase everything.
The reason I can& #39;t say if I was 8, 9 or 10 is because my brain literally tried to erase everything.
