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I find this funny for the same reason I like Todd Solondz movies, it ends up saying something about us that’s hard to put into words.
As you get older you become keyed in to more and more conflicting obligations and social rules that are rarely elucidated and are enforced and punished completely at random. Your very wellbeing is put into the hands of other people and out of your control.
What’s worse is, things you have little or no control over like race or ability all add up to an idea that exists in the heads of other people that you also don’t have any control over, and this completely defines your relationship to society.
One of these things is sex appeal, and it comes at a time when you don’t even have a slight idea of what it means or what others see it for. You’re something to be idealized or consumed and you have no say in it.
In order to be a functional adult, you have to sublimate these facts in a positive way. You treat having a career like bad weather, or wear makeup as battle paint, or find an ideology that soothes the pain and gives it meaning, but the anxiety is still there.
You’ll never stop wondering if your race or career or something you haven’t even thought of is defining you somehow, and it drives everyone wild all the time. The red flag book discourse today is actually a small sample of that.
So here we have Milly, the AT&T girl, who probably went through this exact same experience during puberty before sublimating it away however she did, coming face to face with the fact that things are exactly the same as they were when she was a teenager.
She’s essentially begging us to see and accept her humanity, but to most of us she’s just an idea (at best) or a product.
The people supporting her do it because they see themselves in everything I just said, but it doesn’t matter because the relation I described is what’s gutting her like this.
Like Dawn being jealous of her classmate for having sex with older boys in Welcome to the Dollhouse, or Abe getting everything he wants and still being miserable in Dark Horse, seeing MILKY MILKY on an IG live of a crying woman is a perfect little gem of human misery.
For the record, I will never go into detail about my own history with abuse or objectification in order to satisfy strangers online. Take these posts any way you want to.
