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This might be a long thread so the tl;dr: I& #39;m not genderfluid, I& #39;m trans. You can call me Sera and use she/her pronouns. Name subject to change.
Folks who have been following me for a while will know that gender as a construct has always been weird for me. Really weird. [1/n]
Folks who have been following me for a while will know that gender as a construct has always been weird for me. Really weird. [1/n]
Genderfluid felt like a safe label -- nice and ambiguous -- but if you asked me at any point in my life to describe my mental self-image, it would& #39;ve been a woman. Literally without exception. I certainly feel it more some days than others, but not by much. [2/n]
I& #39;ve always been scared to take on concrete labels. It feels both too final and also too easy to challenge. I& #39;m not a *real* hacker. I& #39;m not a *real* programmer. I& #39;m not a *real* trans woman. I don& #39;t cry when I look in the mirror, so I don& #39;t have *real* dysphoria. [3/n]
But you know what? I get to determine this. This is a label I& #39;m scared to take on, but here it goes: I am a trans woman. It says a lot that I& #39;m more scared to tweet that than anything I& #39;ve ever tweeted, for a lot of reasons. [4/n]
I hate my body. I always have and I& #39;ve always felt like I always would. And that sucks but it& #39;s honestly not hard being an ugly guy. It& #39;s definitely hard being an ugly woman, and maybe even harder being an ugly trans woman. That... terrifies me. [5/n]
But now I know that my hatred of my body is -- at least in large part -- rooted in the fact that it just doesn& #39;t feel like me. I don& #39;t see myself in the mirror. I never have. And maybe I can make measurable impacts on the other things I dislike about my body if I fix that. [6/n]
I don& #39;t know what my transition is going to look like -- I need to work with a good therapist and my loved ones to make that plan -- but I know this is something I want to do. I have reservations, but all of them come back to fear. [7/n]
From now on, my pronouns are she/her. I& #39;m gonna play with names until something feels right, but my leading contender is Serafina -- Sera for short. It doesn& #39;t quite feel right, but it& #39;s a start. We& #39;ll see where things land. [8/n]
Thank you in advance for the love and support I know will come in. I appreciate you all so much!
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