I& #39;ve been floating around 185-ish followers for the last year or two, and it just struck me I have no idea how to increase this. All the tips and tricks for engaging with social media and growing a platform feel ghastly and shallow, but also like... essential? I don& #39;t know.

My worth as a creator and musician is not easily quantified by how many people listen to my work, but it& #39;s very, very easy to convince myself that it is, something that I& #39;m aware is true across all artistic mediums. I find myself obsessing over the idea of *growth.*

It leaves me with the conflicting desire to be seen, heard and recognised against my equal desire to be genuine, something which marketing... isn& #39;t. I think this is *also* a common problem for creators. We just want to make, not comment on ten different twitter threads an hour.

I don& #39;t think it *bothers* me, but I& #39;m also very aware of it, that although I improve as a musician, as I write (to my ears) better pieces, I have little traction in my field. Desire to be seen Vs. no desire to market myself.

This thread isn& #39;t for anything or anyone, I& #39;m not asking and don& #39;t expect anyone to run out and shout my name out to the heavens for me. Just a passing moment of melancholic reflection on how my ideas of worth can be attached to numbers that don& #39;t mean a lot. Thanks for reading.