Hm thinking about how I can’t take straight guys seriously/always finding them a bit annoying/i always think ‘hm how can you actually behave this way 24/7’ and find them to be shells

Like, I take their presentation as almost a joke because I can’t imagine truly buying into this thought of manliness quite as it is ?? And so have trouble taking seriously that that is actually the way they behave/process things

So ig I just assumed that maybe they were all crazy ? Or like that they were all somehow brainwashed? Idk and then there weee the men that were beyond 2D

cs friend js bf e seems like he may break that mold, and a lot of the boys I follow on tiktok do as well. I think it comes from an ability to recognize and indeed be able to step out of, hang on the hook, and place gender in the closet so as to examine it from the outside.

Sometimes, I do so desperately wish I could at least imagine (and could feel comfortable) putting it in the closet. I feel like this thread is the start of trying to put it on the hook, but it is so very much still Visible, unable to be shut into the closet completely.