just remembered my nightmare from last night where i was driving home high and got into a car accident because it was dark and i wasnt sure where i was or where i was going but cops pulled up on me and then my parents were yelling at me louder than theyve ever yelledbefore and

i ran away to likethis weird thing of tunnels that i dreamt about before which was where i ran 15 miles through in my previous dream and it took me to like school and a lot of other places in between like weird ass places like farms and fields and shit and on my way back from my

old middle school where i was trying to take the tunnel backwards to get back home as a shortcut (since i couldnt drive anymore after crashing my car and running away from home) and it was dark again and i was all alone but then there were 3 people in the tunnel taking pics for

yearbook or some shit and i was like wtf and i think there was a cat but yeah they were stuck because they couldnt figure out how to go back even though they were all really fucking smart and i was like ok i knowim a failure but i guess i know these tunnels lemme help and i led

them back down and it was really dangerous and really narrow at some parts and at one point it went to the same road that i crashed on but in daylight this time and it wasnt confusing anymore and i knew i fucked up fatally on that same road but i was traveling back down it now

and realized that honestly it wasnt my fault that i couldnt see it last time and maybe i could have done better but im going back down it now and im doing it just fine and im not taking any wrong turns and i know this tunnel and exactly where it's going and it got rlly physcially

dangerous and strenuous at one point so i was like alright lemme go before you guys and i was carrying something heavy i think a blanket but i had to start going down the winding road it was shaped like a giant coil or spiral and paper thin and wind was blowing and i could fall

and die and the heavy thing was dragging me down but i stayed on this time and i led them to the end which was like a yellow field that stretched on for ages and it was like in the middle of nowhere and i wanted to continue going in that direction of the field looking for someone

but i dont know what there is but everybody at the end of the tunnel was celebrating me leading them through safely and i felt known and respected and strong there but i wanted to keep going just deeper into the field and idk what was in that dreamscape but i knew he'd be there

overcame my struggles, dared to go back down the water spout that washed me away the first time and led people down along the way, it was even harder than before and i was carrying more weight than i should physcially be able to handle but i succeeded and i could trust myself

to make it this time even though i had no way of knowing for sure that i was going the right way i just did what i felt was right and i didnt fuck up and crash the car and have to abandon everything i had just because i wasnt sure where i was going. anyway i made it back and was

proud of myself and everyone was giving me attention and congratulating me and treating me like i cleared the final level in a video game and had all their respect and shit but it wasnt enough for me and it was bascially like they were all sheep now and i was just thinking of

leaving behind the part of the field that i mastered and just go walk miles through what looked like absolutely nothing to try to find someone who i wasnt even sure was there or their exact location but i felt like i had to try, in contrast to my lack ofearlier directional sense

And i said i saw the tunnels in a dream before, also next to school and I ran 15 miles through them trying to run into the same person. then i led them through it backwards and made them think that i was coincidentally an expert. the common theme is me being wiling to run MILES

for someone who i literally dont know if i will see or not. i ran 15 miles the first time through those same tunnels and then i went to hell and back and my instinct was just to keep on walking out into the unknown instead of relax and celebrate myself. i was willing to run miles

and walk forever (which i fucking HATE DOING MORE THAN ANYTHING) just for the Chance that i might run into them if they happen to be out there at the same time as me. and the idea is ridiculous because the odds are so fucking thin but i trust myself and i have faith that ill lead

them back to where i came from and master every unknown realm or whatever the fuck.

this has been foggy previous night's memory dream recollections and interpretations at nearly4:20 in the morning. brought to you by THC

this thread looks fucking psycho sorry lmfaooo fuck i'm high as shit rn and my brain is going 100 miles per hour and i got hyperfixated on typing