all i want is friends and to feel loved, and i don't know what i do wrong for all i feel is pain

please i'm open to criticism. am i mean, am i insensitive, am i acting too entitled to peoples time, am i not around the right people, am i reaching out at the wrong time. i shred myself to bits over these things because i want to know, or am i overthinking

like i wish my tweets were of "haha funny" or "o relatable" quality but thing is this is a very real problem to me that i'm focusing on more because i want to resolve it because i don't want to feel this way for another decade and a half

i've never rly known what a stable relationship is like in my life growing up & i hate how that's influenced so many of my relationships in the sense of, "oh yeah I'm happy w/them even acknowledging me" like wtf is that. i cry when someone tells me "i love u" or they express it.

i literally don't expect ppl to care about me it's always like "hey let me put this out into the world i hope it or someone reciprocates it, crossing my fingers"

i dont want to feel like this forever anymore

whtevr /vent i should've made it so nobody could reply to this thread