I& #39;d rather be me than fit into a mold.

This thread is about to get personal.

According to (I guess) Chinese/Asian culture, I& #39;d be a bad human being.
Having piercings, tattoos, being not so straight, doing wrestling.
I& #39;m a disgrace to everything and everyone it seems.
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Pro wrestling was my escape from reality when I was 13. I grew and became more me because of wrestling.
7 years taught me a lot of things, 7 years gave me great grief and epic moments.
Despite all the shit, I would not trade the past 7 years.

Since I could remember, I fancied both guys and girls.
I thought I was fucked up, one shouldn& #39;t like girls, maybe I& #39;m not human?
Then LGBT+ became more prominent, & I fitted in somewhere now, it all makes sense now.

I came out 2 years ago on my socials, but not to family. I knew what their reaction would be.
People around are supportive, it was one of my best decisions to publicly share my happiness with people who cared about me.

We& #39;ve gone our separate ways since, & my family knows.

First piercing I got was during my internship in Korea 6 years back. It snowballed over the weeks and I ended up with 8 piercings in total, 7 on both ears and belly pierced.

That was my first taste of freedom. And I liked my piercings a lot. Somehow it felt me. I felt me.

Last day before I ended my internship, I got my first tattoo.

스스로에게 진실하라, be true to yourself.

That& #39;s what I got etched permanently to remind me to always be myself.

Subsequent tattoos had it& #39;s own meanings, no one needs to understand them but me.

If I had to change any or all of these things...
Is it enough for my family?
Am I not enough?
Does all these things about me, make me a bad human being?

I know for sure I would not fully be myself.