I was a bitter angry shitlord atheist through high school and 9th grade until I had a very profound dream about an angel named Micah. It literally changed my life. That's how I got into paganism after my friend exposed me to it of course.

Since then I was always more in tune with angels than anything. The angel Azrael appeared to me a year or two later, and has apparently been with me in each of my lives, and some times I accept him others I don't. He is very near and dear to me, and i have a deep love for him.

Another angel that frequently pops into my life is samael who is just the best thing ever. But every time he does I'm just like

Cause he likes to test you in very unpleasant ways to push you past your comfort zone and boundaries so you can grow. He's a lower vibration angel so he's easier to communicate with on earth in the flesh. He reminds me of Marlboros and motorcycles and dad jokes. He's so cool.

Metatron loves children. Very soft spoken. Loves innocent joke humor. Watermelons. Pastels. Very very high vibration angel and very hard to communicate with. Purple.

Azrael was always a mix. Hes a very very old high vibration angel but is almost always exclusively in the realm of the physical world we see or malkuth. Time and space does not exist for angels so he's constantly with you at the time of your birth to the time of your death.

He's there when you come in and there when you come out. He adores chocolate extra salty buttery popcorn, hates burgers but likes hot dogs. He likes junk food. It's weird. He wishes people weren't scared of him. Hes driftwood and the beach, sea glass and Jet. H

He is old twisting trees in a graveyard and the warm loose soil you sink your toes into. He's old dusty books and the sound of crows cawing. He feels like a father that is so proud of you no matter what you do. Hes staring up into the vastness of the night sky.

Hes older than time and older than that. He's what made me get over my fear of death and made me realize it was a fear of pain instead. Death is nothing to be scared of, it's something to rejoice. He will be there to bring you home and will listen to you whenever you need to talk

I don't know why I made this thread I just really felt a lot of love for Azrael when I got home. It's cool if you don't believe in this stuff just. Y'know. Don't mock me for it. Like I said I was an atheist. I'm a very logic driven person. Sometimes I doubt.

But some things I can't explain. And instead of filling me with fear, it comforts me. Sometimes I you don't need an explanation and you should just be.