i think so many people without body dysmorphia thinks it is a choice to focus on our appearance and get hung up about it and we shouldn& #39;t bc the woke movement rn is all about teaching people beauty standards are unrealistic and nobody is "ugly" or "pretty" we just are. 1/?

i don& #39;t want to focus on my looks. i don& #39;t choose it. my body dysmorphia hangs around me like a shadow. i could be doing anything, and it& #39;s there. i go days without looking in the mirror, it& #39;s there. i smile, it& #39;s there; "why are you smiling? you& #39;re disgusting"

the days i do brave the mirror i don& #39;t know who she is. i think i& #39;m so far dissociated from myself. but whoever it is disgusts me. in my mind to cope i dont even physically exist. i do not exist in other people& #39;s minds or space. it feels easiest to not be real

idek entirely what any of this thread means, i just want people to realise body dysmorphia doesn& #39;t stem from wanting attention but quite the opposite. when i need to vent abt my appearance i& #39;d rather people not even comment. compliments = being seen. being thought abt. being real

i tried to gender transition because i thought if i was someone else it wouldn& #39;t hurt. for a short while it worked, i wasn& #39;t me. i saw a boy in the mirror, he masked how i felt about myself, but he wasn& #39;t me. not being yourself is incredibly painful too and doesn& #39;t work. /end sry