Something that I struggle with are things that I don’t like feeling permanent. Like never feeling fully safe around men. Any man. Does this feeling ever end for women? No. And I hate that.

Like women really have to live in fear of men FOR LIFE. Bruh. Do you know how exhausting that is? That men who you deemed safe can someday still violate you? It’s just—it’s a lot to think about. It feels very permanent. At least in our life time that is.

Another is racism for me. That absolutely feels permanent in our life time. And it bothers me so bad. Like why do the worst things in life take the longest to change? If they ever even change at all. And looking through history......some things don’t change. Ugh.

This genuinely keeps me up. Especially my fear of men. I hate feeling like I’ll forever have to be extremely on guard and even then, something can still happen. No matter what women do, we’re at risk of being harmed in various ways. Emotionally. Sexually. Physically. Financially.

I’m so damn TIRED of fearing my safety around men but until men stop harming women as a whole, women will perpetually live in fear of them. Sometimes it’s even a subconscious fear around men we “trust”. But the fear of the worst happening is still always there.

This doesn’t even have anything to do with “hating men” or being a misandrist. It’s just so fucking exhausting thinking about what women have experienced at the hands of men, continue to experience, and will damn near forever experience. I hate what men do to *all* women.

And hating them is justified btw. 100% justified. It’s a normal reaction to hate someone that puts all aspects of your life at risk.

Like, I have men in my life who, after spending a significant amount of time with them, I feel like I can relax and not be heavily guarded. But then I remember that other women may have had different experiences with them that I don’t know about. So am I *really* safe?