@TapiwaMunjoma, i changed my mind abt hiding names. I shall speak openly. My name is Tinashe. Small context~ my parents divorced wen I wz 4, lived with my mom from then. She remarried wen I was 7. My stepdad hated me badly. We moved 2 his house and he became extremely abusive.

He insisted I go back 2 my father. My Father was an alcoholic & mom wasn't going 2 let me go, that wud b e worst. Got a beating wen I was in grade 3 n woke up in hospital. Mom had gone 2 work. Mom then bought her own house hoping to silence e guy since it wud be her house now

Year was nw 1999 & We moved. Mom had brought Sibongile Dema, who is my step dad's niece 4rm kumusha 2 look afta my baby sis. stepdad also had a child from previous marriage & she was a year older than me. So, 1st day of moving, I spent e night with Sibongile & my stepsis tiri 3

Sibo was 17. I was 8. ON THAT NIGHT SHE RAPED ME. Instructed me to touch and lick her vagina, breasts and rub her vagina with my hand. She said I wasn't doing it right. She instructed my stepsister and I to do the act on each other since "we weren't related" and also

Because we were the same age. My stepsister hd jus moved w us. Her mother had died a year before this & she was generally awfully quiet. Wen we were instructed, she blew e candle and was asked y n she said "ndiri kunyara'. Me and her tried what we were told and obviously failed

Sibo then took me back to her and did the things again. The smell of her privates never left my memory to this day. After this, Sibo then got into the habit of showing us porn since "takapusa". The rape happened again in 2001. She wud sit us down to watch porn since I was in

grade 4. Also, my stepdads hatred became worse. Ndaitukwa each & every day of my life. I Neva spoke cz that wd results in me being taken back 2 my dad. I was so abused in that house that I felt sorry 4 my mother more than myself, she would cry so often yet, nothing she cud do

So I Neva spoke. Went to Kutama form 1. This was e 1st time I spent months away from my stepdad and from Sibo and from home. I loved it. I cudnt stomach e thot of going back home. Attempted suicide. Got help from Father Fughe who was the priest and Bro Aaron Mazhambe

e counseling was so helpful it it helped me manage my emotions. ff to upper 6. went to a mixd xool. Dated a girl and dzaive mu fast/or I was slow . She slid my hand into her skirt and I lost it. Pushed her and literally lost it. I noticed I still had that rape in mind.

Managed to speak to my father and it helped. ff to 2020 some family friend says in an argument "bla bla bla thats why waida kuzviuraya when you were in school". I was shocked cz pple weren't supposed to know. Spoke to my mom for the first time abt it and told her everything

She asked Sibo who is now married, and she said "will come after lockdown to talk". To me, e reason y I managed all these years wz coz I always assumed that Sibo hadnt apoligised coz the issue hadn't BN brot up.i always thot she was sorry but cudnt say it. She didnt apologise.

She didn't meet mom. Rumours started that I was lying. went to Childline and ask d that they help w a meeting 4 closure & they explain to her why an apology was important. she said "I don't remember. Not saying it happened or didn't but I don't remember". Her brother said..

1.kwaive kutamba kwevana 2.u shudv said no, u were old enuf. 3. U probably enjoyed it cz as men it wz maybe a favour. Sibo said "chibharo chaicho munochiziva here, rape chaiyo" e lady at Childline asked her how she knew it wasn't violent if she claimed not to remember.

The apology Neva came. At family level, my stepfather said he didn't want to hear this because zvaizokanganisa imba yemuzukuru wavo Sibo neye mwana wavo. He still hates me btw. So went to police. Sibo bribed the police and I HV evidence I police saying go report kwaunoda

Then went to Padare. They were heaven sent. Got linked w VFU direct & managed 2 go 2 court 4 setdown. I'm meeting my rapist in court. Also, my stepsister now says she doesn't remember. My stepfather said "how can she defend u hausi Hama yedu"

Lastly I got tremendous help from @PadareMen who counselled me and helped me reach VFU. Childline esp Pauline. @Pontifex's Bro Aaron Mazhambe, Kare ikako and @PoliceZimbabwe VFU who are exceptionally professional. I await to get justice !

I hope this will help others. I was broken but the guy from @PadareMen treated me like family. Thanks @TapiwaMunjoma make this trend so that we all know that men too need help when they have been violated .