when you have family members that has mental health issues, you constantly have to think of what you’re saying, how you’re saying them, what you’re doing and how you’re doing them. because you never know how or what is going to affect them.

it’s difficult, especially when it has been like that for so many years.
it makes me neglect my own feelings and my own problems, as I see them as not important.

which is not true. because no matter how bad someone has it, your own feelings and problems are valid.
even tho they encourage me to speak of my emotions, I still can’t help but to feel like a bother.

so I don’t speak of them. and I’m a very closed person. my family knows so little about me, and they say they’re wondering what’s going on in my head. and I say I’m fine even when I’m not. cause I don’t wanna bother.

I can’t understand how I manage to be so open about my feelings online. to people I barely know. maybe it’s a step to become a more open person irl?

no matter what, your feelings, emotions and problems has just as much value as anyone elses. maybe it’s hard to see, but you’re not a bother. if they make you feel like a bother when you’re talking to them, they’re ignorant.

so uhm my conclusion, even tho I bet no one sees this. is that you can and should talk about how you feel. cause keeping all of it inside, does more harm than good. trust me.

I’m always here for you, no matter what.

anyways stan bts