Today I had a meltdown & went nonverbal for the 1st time in a long time.

Why? I had more energy than @carterforva when I woke up, and he couldn& #39;t keep up with how fast I was going.

My dad used to complain I talked too much, and I& #39;m rly insecure about it STILL, so I panicked.

Anxiety had me thinking I was annoying Lee. I started feeling like a freak in my own skin. When I was finally verbal again & able to explain WHY I got sad/upset, he said something that changed everything.

He didn& #39;t want me to be quiet. He wanted me to explain so he understood.

I& #39;ve had plenty of people complain that I& #39;m extra, or too hyper, or too chatty. I& #39;ve never had anyone ask me to help them understand.

How tf did I carry that insecurity around for 30 years?

Damn.

Get you someone who loves you the way you are.