Today I had a meltdown & went nonverbal for the 1st time in a long time.

Why? I had more energy than @carterforva when I woke up, and he couldn't keep up with how fast I was going.

My dad used to complain I talked too much, and I'm rly insecure about it STILL, so I panicked.

Anxiety had me thinking I was annoying Lee. I started feeling like a freak in my own skin. When I was finally verbal again & able to explain WHY I got sad/upset, he said something that changed everything.

He didn't want me to be quiet. He wanted me to explain so he understood.

I've had plenty of people complain that I'm extra, or too hyper, or too chatty. I've never had anyone ask me to help them understand.

How tf did I carry that insecurity around for 30 years?

Damn.

Get you someone who loves you the way you are.