It is 1am and I am bored so here is a general update of me as a person and my life. Thread so idk how long this will be but I hope you enjoy. So I start uni in a month and a few weeks, tbh I am excited but also nervous as fuck lol. I like that I will have my own space but (1/?)

It is also sort of scary, I have never really been a very independent person and I would be lying if I said I wasn't lazy. I am going to need to change quite a lot of my habits to make sure I succeed. I really want to stay in contact with all my friends but I will be sad... (2/?)

Because we are going to be so far from eac other. I hope everyone makes new friends but I hope none of us forget each other and we can still all hang out together on breaks. Trying not to so sound cringe bit I love my friends so much and idk what I would do without them. (3/?)

In case you don't know, I am studying Zoology at uni with the course specifically about animal behaviour. This is actually by coincidence the same course my cousin did and he works as a zookeeper. Now I am not sure if I want to do that myself but I definitely want to... (4/?)

Do something related, private breeding to help endangered species seems interesting but I don't know much about it honestly. I'm sure in my 3 years at uni I will find out more ideas! Now onto more personal things and that is finding myself as an adult. I turned 18 in April (5/?)

And I have noticed some changes in my parents actions. I have always been lucky to have very supportive parents that gave me many freedoms but its defiitely felt like I have much more freedom recently and it feels great. Honestly I feel the happiest I ever have right now. (6/?)

Coming out of my social bubble slowly has been something I have been working towards since I just realised not to care about others opinions too much (sometimes I am scared I do this too much though). I used to have no social life at all but now I am gasping for it. (7/?)

A good lesson in life is to honestly just do things and not overthink. It helps with confidence a bunch, I learnt this when I first asked out a girl over a year ago (I was rejected btw). Once it happens once, you can do it again. Talking about liking girls, this segways... (8/?)

Into how back in September 2019 I had a crush on a friend and I cut my hair short because I wanted to seem more attractive. Truth is I never have really liked my hair until recently. Currently going without a cut since November and it feels good, long hair gang ftw lol. (9/?)

Also at one point I wanted to dye my hair but I don't think I will now, that might change though. Never don't do anything because you are scared that you will be weird. I was scared at first but honestly just embracing myself has made me more confident. Believe in yourself (10/?)

Now I mainly talked about irl but truth is I have to give it to my online friends from over the years. If anyone tells you online friends aren't real friends they are fucking wrong, I don't know what I would be like without them. Online can act like a special place (11/?)

And this really helped me, any issues I had that I wasn't comfortable sharing irl I would share there. I still tell them my problems but I also tell people irl now that I am confident enough to do that. If you are one of my online friends and reading this, thank you. (12/?)

This thread is already long and I kinda derailed it into motivational support ahahaha whoops. But tbh there isn't much more to say about me since quarantine has put me in limbo as it has many others so I will just end this with a few things I want to say. (13/?)

1. Addiction is scary, doesn't matter what it is. I had a legit anime addiction in 2019 and it severely fucked my grades in school. Of course it was just a phase I am now out of but it had ramifications.

2. Don't feel you NEED a relationship, go with the flow.

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3. Forcing yourself to do sonething can sometimes actually be good. I was bored as shit in quarantine and resorted to just sitting on Discord and masturbating for a while. Forcing myself back into gaming got my brain working again and made me happier. Give it a go. (15/15)