Not that long ago I told my siblings about being a system and my younger sister especially seems to not want to acknowledge it? And idk how I feel abt that- bc on one hand I don't want special treatment & idk if I want to be referred to by name or w/e.

I guess I would be fine if she acknowledged that yk, a conversation with me yesterday might not have exactly been with me. She just kinda plays dumb or avoids using any name for me & stuff like that. I get being afraid to ask even tho I said it's always fine. It's just that

over text she'll either be like "oh okay" if I bring up a system thing & we've talked abt it, like she understands the concept & knows that I forget stuff & why but I can tell that outside of that, it feels weird acknowledging me as several ppl. I'm supposed to be 1 sibling yk?

Sometimes I feel kinda wrong bc I can't be that. I always pretended but having friends & doctors & w/e that knew but still pretending w my siblings just felt like lying. That's why I felt like I kinda had to tell them, bc I'm close to them.

And it's like, she literally treats us differently. With my cohost she seems slightly intimidated sometimes but usually comfortable & happy around him & wants his approval a lot. She'll bring up different conversation topics with us or appeal to interests we've maybe talked

about like, over text. She obviously knows we're not the same person & I know these things take getting used to but idek what I even want. So how can she know wtf I want? I mean maybe I'm just afraid of making her feel weird & not even thinking abt what I want.

I mean calling her a new name felt weird at first but now I'm used to it.
Maybe I'm worried it's just making people cater to my mental illness in a way they shouldn't have to? Also change is scary & this is different. It's not like a gender thing, it's changing

the way she views me entirely as a person so maybe that's harder? Like if someone's trans it's like "okay well ur the same person I've always known & cared about, just not the gender I knew you as" but as an alter others that already know me have to wrap their head around the

fact that they never knew me as a person, just kinda the single identity we project that's kind of a combination of our traits? Is it scary for them to lose that person? Or does it just feel weird and unnecessary??? I know that's not something someone besides them can answer for

me, but I wish I knew

Like my older sister referred to my cohost by name once irl, so she's like getting used to it but my younger one just idk, I feel like it's probably weird for her. I think I want to be acknowledged as me but I think the way she reacts makes me feel like

"Oh no is that too much to ask? Am I really asking to indulge my mental illness like that? Do other ppl with this even do that???" so now I'm frustrated & kinda not sure where this thread was going but I'm a mess that's all

Maybe it'd help if anyone else has been through this kinda thing? Idk