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I guess I would be fine if she acknowledged that yk, a conversation with me yesterday might not have exactly been with me. She just kinda plays dumb or avoids using any name for me & stuff like that. I get being afraid to ask even tho I said it& #39;s always fine. It& #39;s just that
over text she& #39;ll either be like "oh okay" if I bring up a system thing & we& #39;ve talked abt it, like she understands the concept & knows that I forget stuff & why but I can tell that outside of that, it feels weird acknowledging me as several ppl. I& #39;m supposed to be 1 sibling yk?
Sometimes I feel kinda wrong bc I can& #39;t be that. I always pretended but having friends & doctors & w/e that knew but still pretending w my siblings just felt like lying. That& #39;s why I felt like I kinda had to tell them, bc I& #39;m close to them.
And it& #39;s like, she literally treats us differently. With my cohost she seems slightly intimidated sometimes but usually comfortable & happy around him & wants his approval a lot. She& #39;ll bring up different conversation topics with us or appeal to interests we& #39;ve maybe talked
about like, over text. She obviously knows we& #39;re not the same person & I know these things take getting used to but idek what I even want. So how can she know wtf I want? I mean maybe I& #39;m just afraid of making her feel weird & not even thinking abt what I want.
I mean calling her a new name felt weird at first but now I& #39;m used to it.
Maybe I& #39;m worried it& #39;s just making people cater to my mental illness in a way they shouldn& #39;t have to? Also change is scary & this is different. It& #39;s not like a gender thing, it& #39;s changing
Maybe I& #39;m worried it& #39;s just making people cater to my mental illness in a way they shouldn& #39;t have to? Also change is scary & this is different. It& #39;s not like a gender thing, it& #39;s changing
the way she views me entirely as a person so maybe that& #39;s harder? Like if someone& #39;s trans it& #39;s like "okay well ur the same person I& #39;ve always known & cared about, just not the gender I knew you as" but as an alter others that already know me have to wrap their head around the
fact that they never knew me as a person, just kinda the single identity we project that& #39;s kind of a combination of our traits? Is it scary for them to lose that person? Or does it just feel weird and unnecessary??? I know that& #39;s not something someone besides them can answer for
me, but I wish I knew
Like my older sister referred to my cohost by name once irl, so she& #39;s like getting used to it but my younger one just idk, I feel like it& #39;s probably weird for her. I think I want to be acknowledged as me but I think the way she reacts makes me feel like
Like my older sister referred to my cohost by name once irl, so she& #39;s like getting used to it but my younger one just idk, I feel like it& #39;s probably weird for her. I think I want to be acknowledged as me but I think the way she reacts makes me feel like
"Oh no is that too much to ask? Am I really asking to indulge my mental illness like that? Do other ppl with this even do that???" so now I& #39;m frustrated & kinda not sure where this thread was going but I& #39;m a mess that& #39;s all
Maybe it& #39;d help if anyone else has been through this kinda thing? Idk
