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Dear Lord, What About Me?
Growing up, I wasn't one of the children that was told they will be great. I wasn't told my future will be electric. I was never told I will be a voice in my generation... #Thread.
Growing up, I wasn't one of the children that was told they will be great. I wasn't told my future will be electric. I was never told I will be a voice in my generation... #Thread.
When I saw the way some youngsters operated in God's power so beautifully, I found I began to ask God this question so frequently, "Lord, what about me?"
There were times we went to church and people received prophecies. For all the time the prophecies came, none was ever for me. My life was sort of really different and I wondered why. Lol.
How about the times the power of God came down so heavily and people were "falling under the anointing?" I never fell, I always stood still... Everyone was falling, not me, never me.
This bothered me a whole lot. At a point, I began to feel there was a veil covering my destiny, I started to feel I wasn't important. I was starting to think, "maybe God will not use me afterall."
How about the times people would come and say they heard from God? They'll be like, "God told me..." Hian?! This one was the most annoying of them all because I had never heard anything. 'How does God even talk to people?' I kept asking.
I was a church girl quite alright, but truth be told, I was a confused soul. I didn't understand how these things worked.
Then came the time I got admission into the University. There, a whole lot of my fellowship members knew how to speak in tongues except me...
Then came the time I got admission into the University. There, a whole lot of my fellowship members knew how to speak in tongues except me...
This was me that used to pray for hours, yet, things were just different for me.
WHAT WAS WRONG WITH ME? Or was God now partial too? I found myself confused, asking, and yes! I got answers.
WHAT WAS WRONG WITH ME? Or was God now partial too? I found myself confused, asking, and yes! I got answers.
I realised like many other people, I've been so concerned about what man has to say than I was about what God has already said. (Please read that again).
As humans, there's this natural tendency to seek validation, and that was just what I wanted.
As humans, there's this natural tendency to seek validation, and that was just what I wanted.
Like many other people, I was seeking to hear what others had to say about me, while I completely neglected the volume of books written of me. I wanted demonstration, I wanted physical show, my ears were itchy, I wanted to hear something nice.
I was pursuing works, and neglecting the Worker, I was seeking for crumbs instead of sitting to a table prepared before me.
It took a long hard time to realise this, but as soon as I did, I began to take steps backwards.
It took a long hard time to realise this, but as soon as I did, I began to take steps backwards.
