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It’s the man shoulders for me.
It’s the thinking that If you put makeup on you’ll pass.
It’s the buying girls clothing But being to insecure to wear it and take pictures in it
It’s the being out for one year and still not being on horomones for me.
It’s the using your body to get affection because thats the only way guys will give you attention.
It’s the basing your self worth off male validation for me
It’s the being too fem for gay men and looking like tok much of a boy for straight men.
It’s the way youre ok with always being a guys secret for me
Not the shaved eyebrows.
Not the fridge built body
Not the daddy issues
Not you being to afraid to go to a psychiatrist because you know you’ll get diagnosed with mental health issues
Not you being too afraid to ask a man for more than a friends with benefits relationship
Not you advertising yourself as a whore so guys will talk to you, but still being a virgin and being to insecure to actually do something
Not you being unable to truly accept complements because you always feel lowkey ugly and also you lowkey agree with the guys that troll and call you ugly because they have a point.
Not you falling for every guy that gives you the slightest bit of care and respect because your standards are so low and you feel like you don’t deserve more.
It’s the body and gender dysmorphia for me.
It’s the suicidal thoughts for me.
It’s the trying to commit But failing at it like everything else you try doing.
It’s the needing therapy But refusing to go because you dont even know the root of your issues for me.
It’s the fact that you invalidate your own emotions because you feel like you need to be a bad bitch 24/7
It’s the fact that you cry yourself to sleep for me
It’s the fact that you thought when you came out things would change for me.
It’s the fact that you have to rely on friends to emotionally support you because you can’t do it for yourself
Not you feeling like you’re not valid because your trans and want to be seen as a girl But still looking like a whole boy for me.
Not you feeling like you’ll never be truly loves because youre trans
Not you caring more about if people think your happy than actually being happy.
Not you binge eatting to help you cope with your feelings instead of actively doing something to make yourself feel better.
Not you forcing yourself to throw up because you feel like if you get any fatter no one will want to be seen with you.
Not you posting thirst traps to get conpiments that temporarily make you feel better.
Not you saying youre a bad bitch But settling for men who just want you for your body
Not you growing out your hair to help you pass But now you just look like a boy with a wig or perm
It’s the way you try to laugh off the hate comments But they lowkey get to you for me.
It’s the way you like being in Twitter gcs because it’s distracts you and allows you to ignore and suppress your emotions instead of confronting and dealing with them for me.
It’s the way that you think having a fat ass will make up for not being a cis girl of me.
It’s the way you bully yourself to make yourself feel better But just end up feeling more insecure for me.
It’s the way you downloaded Grindr at 16 so you could have a “high school bf” experience But just ended up getting pulled into toxic gay hookup culture and damaging yourself for me .
It’s the way you wish your were born a cis het girl so that you wouldn’t be as damaged for me.
It’s the way you thought dying your hair would make you feel pretty But the feeling only Lasted a week.
It’s the way straight guys dm you and when they find out your trans they completely ghost you for me.
It’s the way you had a breakdown and deleted all your Twitter media of you to just post the Same pic you got so much hate on the next day for me.
It’s the way you haven’t actually been happy in four years, you just keep pretending because you think that if you keep pretending one day you’ll forget you’re not happy.
Not you basing how pretty you are on how many tinder matches you get
Not you coming up with excuses for straight men that talk to you when they want to keep you a secret.
Not you having a list of things you would change about your body just in case you ever get the money to get surgery.
Not you wanting to be in a serious relationship but being to scared to commit to anyone because you think that no one will truly love you because you’re trans and that’s not “normal”
Not you seeking make attention everytime you’re sad to distract from the fact that you hate yourself and lowkey wanna kys
It’s the needing therapy but not getting any because you’re to afraid to talk about your feelings and realize that the world isn’t the problem you are
It’s the starting at yourself in the mirror every morning to see if you like your body a bit more but alway still hating it
It’s the thinking that just because you have an ass you can distract from the fact that you’re fat
It’s the overeating to handle your emotions instead of talking about them and understanding them.
It’s the starving yourself after overeating because you feel fat and ugly
It’s the blaming school for your built up stress and emotions but in reality it’s the fact that you feel stuck and trapped in your body and feel like you’ll always be a ugly little boy
Not you thinking your pretty for a few hours then crying at night because you know you’ll never be as pretty as the cis girls in your life
Not you living through other people’s relationships because you know you will never have a healthy loving relationship that last.
Not you having commitment issues, daddy issues, and trust issues that prevent you from having any type of health relationship
Not you being a bitch and bringing others down because you’re to afraid to let people tear you down and hurt you like they used to.
Not you pushing people you love away because you feel like they’ll realize they’re too good for you and end up leaving you
Not you swearing you aren’t toxic but being the most toxic bitch you know
Not you hating your home because it remind you of your toxic ass childhood
It’s the way every time Someone ask you if you’re ok you just say yes because if you start talking about your emotions you won’t stop
It’s the way you did this thread instead of actually going to talk to someone about the way you feel
