I took down a few threads that I posted in the past few months cuz I realized how much of an idiot I was back then

Maybe you missed them or maybe you saw them, but regardless I'll explain why in this thread

One of them in particular basically amounted to an unhealthy fixation on wanting to upend racism, but I exhibited a good degree of white fragility or whatever in the process? Idk it was messy

I so DESPERATELY wanted to make a webcomic that calls out society on its racist bs

I REALLY did not need to post that thread

I did something similar on my IG stories and it made me realize that sometimes the things I say are incredibly half-baked

Maybe I had good intentions, but they ultimately come off as pathetic & ignorant

Same goes with that Twitter thread I mentioned, it was just blurted out

I am really sorry for even bringing it up on here & IG

I don't think it's my place to do that anymore

I had no need to make those thoughts public, yet I still posted them anyway

I'm sorry about that because it was truly unnecessary & unprofessional

I didn't realize how stupid I was until I finished ranting about it on IG

I still think systemic racism should be destroyed, but there was no need for me to be ranting about it with a weird fixation on it in a pathetic display of distress

I'm better off with just sharing/supporting content related to the BLM movement without comment

I have since learned to keep my trap shut about systemic racism since I've never been oppressed based on my skin color

Because of this, it's not really my place to speak my mind about it when I have NO first-hand experience of my own

It's not my place to blindly obsess over this issue, or speak for the oppressed, or take ideas from the oppressed

Or to do anything with good intentions that in reality tramples upon the very people that you say you're trying to save

As for the webcomic idea that I was ranting about in that one thread, it won't be produced on my own, it HAS to be made by someone who KNOWS about systemic racism firsthand

Which means that unless I happen to collab with someone who has that experience, it's not gonna happen

I still think I'm wildly inexperienced in systemic racism & societal frameworks, but I'm willing to grow

I'm willing to learn from my mistakes

Hopefully, I can outgrow this privileged mindset on my own terms

And with that, I will resume to just sharing content relevant to the BLM movement instead of trying to toss in my opinions or wildest ideas related to them

Instead, I'll just focus on making stuff that I know I have experience in as best as I can

Upon further reflection, I realized that I was becoming a white savior?? Because I felt the need to save BIPOC?? That's exactly what I DIDN'T want to become and yet I was! It's inexcusable behavior!

Once again, I'm sorry about that, & now I'm just gonna shut up about it

Welp, I'm resurrecting this thread, but I only wanted to add that I should forget about this webcomic idea because it's not my jurisdiction to make it and profit from it

If a poc joined me...then maybe? But I certainly cannot do it myself

That would be wrong

Instead I could think about destroying societal norms that everyone deals with, especially those that impact poc to a greater degree

Maybe I could look at challenging like capitalism or billionaires? Idk

I still have a lot to work on as far as dismantling my privileged bias goes

I gotta learn how to save myself b4 I do something hair brained

Until then, I should just not spill my dumb thoughts about this matter on here and expose you to them