okay, i realised my last post seemed like an excuse and not an actually good apology. even if i was in anitiktok and uneducated i will still so insensitive and racist. i understand why lots of people are unfollowing me, and i would do the same thing if it was someone else.

my old post with 'headcannons' was so damn stupid and nothing can excuse it. feel free to unfollow me, i am trying to learn from my mistakes and educate myself more. i let down so many mutuals and people and i dont want to excuse myself.

i want to apologize, to people of colour and black people. while i might have thought it was a harmless joke when i said it, its so harmful and i should have understand that. i cannot excuse the things i did, i cannot take it back, but i can learn and grow from this.

please do not try to justify what i have done. racism is so normalized and it feels so hypercritical of me to support the black lives matter movement but also make racist jokes. yes, the jokes were racist.

i cannot imagine how hard that would be to be a person of colour and have a mutual you trusted say those type of things. i also hurt the lgbtq+ community and as that is my own community that is so fucking harmful and disgusting of me.

do not try to stand up for me, i want to face the consequences for what i have done. so this is my apology to the black and the lgbtq+ community. no matter how uneducated i was, it was still ignorant and fucking stupid.

the worst thing i could do in this situation is make myself into a victim. i am not a victim. i will never have to face the problems poc do and for me to take advantage of that is disgusting. this is for everyone i am sorry.

i would also like to add another apology to the lgbtq+ community and you are all so valid. it doesn't matter how uneducated i was, homophobia is NEVER funny its pure disgusting and i should be held accountable for that instead of me saying 'ive changed'

it doesnt matter if i have changed. i hurt people. i want to become a better person from now on. it was my fault, no one else's. making excuses for myself it the worst thing i could do.