i know im here to be a moment in peoples’ lives, i offer them so much that they can only have it for a moment. even my chart confirms it, im a mirror for people to look within and learn from. im so separated and it sucks bc i give my all in these moments, people take, then leave.

i say im detached and i truly mean it. i give my all to so many and receive nothing back, its fine because thats what im here for so it may hurt now but life goes on. this one just feels so different. i felt something so strong, we both did and we didnt get to fully experience it

because she always knew she wouldn’t be able to in the first place. so even though she knew, we both still felt and she waited for me to finally say something and put myself first. as much as i want to say this is a lesson for me, its not. im hurt because it all feels selfish on

her part, all her timing. i hate that i feel that way because i care for her SO deeply. like i wanted to give and grow, but it wasn’t meant to be like that. i dont even know what im saying anymore, just letting my mind flow. i have care, i have anger, i have happiness, i have

sadness. i knew. she knew. she chose to make those choices and i allowed them. i think my lesson is boundaries. she wanted me to open up and i did, that was taken for granted so its something i will no longer be doing. i hate it has to be that way but our quick moment was so

beautiful that it angers me she didnt stop it from moving so fast. i cant blame myself because i am here for others, this was supposed to happen and i knew it would, i was just hoping her words would show themselves in her actions. she wanted me to change and fit in her life,

but was she going to do the same for me? no.